[BEING EDITED.] [ My little cupcake ] A Natsuki x Sayori story

~part 3: What was this feeling?~

  Natsuki sighs, pushing away the thought of the cheerful girl putting on an act for the others... almost like her. Natsuki decided to walk downstairs but hearing a cheerful voice coming behind her, turning around she saw Sayori running up to her, "NATSUKIIII! WAIT UP!" Sayori said almost looking like she was about to fall down the stairs.

  "I was only going downstairs, not like I was going to school dummy!" Natsuki said in her harsh but normal tone. Sayori smiles like nothing even happen the night before, "Well, maybe we could go out to eat! I know it's only morning but maybe going to eat might be better" Sayori said, fidgeting with her fingers, Natsuki sighs, putting her hand on this short hair female shoulder, "Alright fine! Only because I don't know your house that well to know where all the cooking stuff is in your kitchen." Natsuki said; almost trying to make sense.

  After taking a shower, getting dress out of their warm P.J, Natsuki and Sayori were ready. They both heading out the door and started walking down the street to the nearest town, it didn't take for long because Sayori almost live close the a town with shops, a movie theater, etc. They continue to walk down the street, trying to find a place to eat at. "Maybe there?" Sayori ask, pointing what seems to be a coffee or bakery shop and Natsuki nodded, she wasn't the biggest fan of coffee or tea but maybe another kind of drink could work. They both started to walk to the shop 

  Once they enter, they smell the sweet , warmest; food there. Sayori's mouth was pretty much watering for the food in the bakery. However, Natsuki was pretty much going to grab all the food due to her hunger, "I'll pay! Natsuki I know you'll say you will but let meee!" Sayori beg, almost like she was begging for money or food, Natsuki agrees and Sayori smiles like normal.

  They both walk out of the bakery with two cupcakes, tea, and a juice box. The warmest outside hit them as soon as they walk out of the sweet bakery, looking around seeing a table they could sit at, Sayori walk over to the table, calling Natsuki over by pointing at the table. Natsuki walk over and sat down across the table while Sayori sat there, munching on her cupcake she got. They decide to talk and eat like a prefect dinner party. 

  Sayori was laughing and talking in her cheerful tone when inside she was dying, dying of the pain, she wanted the depression, pain, and suffering to stop! Suddenly she noticed Natsuki looking at her with a worry expression on her face, Sayori shook her head, "Sorry! Did I stare off into space again? I do that a lot. Ehehehe!~" Sayori said, Natsuki got up and walk over to Sayori being her happy, bubbly self. Natsuki place her hand on her shoulder and one of her hands on Sayori's cheek,  "Let's go, we need to talk about what's happening to you..." Natsuki said but something about her saying that made Sayori think, 'does she know... NO I CAN'T LET ANYONE KNOW! GET OUT OF MY HEAD PLEASE!'  Sayori nodded and got up, following Natsuki after throwing away their trash.

  They made their way to Sayori's home, opening the door, Natsuki pointed to Sayori's couch like a parent would do when their child was in trouble. Sayori made her way to the couch and sat down, watching Natsuki sit down next to her. Sayori smile turn into a depression frown like she didn't want this to happen. There was a minute of silent between the two females before Natsuki spoke up, "Sayori what's happening to you? I'm worried, I need to know!" Natsuki said almost like she's begging for mercy.  Sayori sighs gently but sadly and started...,                                   

 "I'll tell you... If I didn't get so weak and accidentally express my feelings... If I didn't make that stupid mistake... then you wouldn't be worried about me at all. You wouldn't have come over. You wouldn't be thinking about me right now. But this... is just my punishment, isn't it? I'm getting punish for being so selfish. I think that's why the world decided for you to come over yesterday.  It just wants to torture me. Ehehe!~" Sayori said, Natsuki pulled Sayori into a hug and Natsuki started to speak, "Sayori this isn't you! I'm sorry for being rude to you and always calling you a dummy or a idiot, but I won't EVER do that again!" Natsuki said, almost at the verge of tears.

  Sayori's heart broke, she didn't want Natsuki to cry over her or feel bad. She wanted no one to care for her. Just no one. Her friend, MC, Yuri, Monika, and... Natsuki. Sayori let her arms stay to the side of her, not wanting Natsuki to comfort her. Sayori look away and laugh a bit before saying..., 

   "You really put me in a trap, Natsuki. But... you're wrong. Nothing happened to me. I've always been like this! You're just seeing it for the first time! Ehehe!~ You're really going to make me say it, aren't you, Natsuki? I guess I have no choice this time. The thing is... I've had really bad depression my whole life. Did you know that? Why do you think i'm always late to school every day?" Sayori said, waiting for Natsuki to stop comfort her, Natsuki thought to herself, 'She's never late! She's always at a club meeting and at school when I see her walking around...' Natsuki thought to herself but Sayori kept speaking..., 

  "Because most days, I can't even find a reason to get out of bed. What reason is there to do anything when I fully know how worthless I am? Why go to school? Why eat? Why make friends? Why make other people put their energy and caring to waste by having them spend time with me-" Sayori was quickly cut off by Natsuki putting her hand on her cheek while tears fell down both girl's faces... Sayori was crying without even realizing it. Sayori sighs.

  Sayori felt her heart pumping from her chest, Natsuki wasn't this serious over someone... She always hiding something, but what? Sayori never felt this feeling before...

  What was this feeling she had?