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Monday

Today i have school and I don't want to go I spent the last day thinking. I did not even get out of bed to go to church that's bad... but I wouldn't stop thinking about him jake.. Why do i care so much, for someone who doesn't care about me ?

   I throw my blanket on the floor and go to my bathroom and turn the shower I on I finally pick up my phone and plug it in Turing on music and see that i have 3 missed calls and 12 text messages from Jake my mom said he stopped by twice but Idc I didn't want to see him I still don't (I know dramatic right) I step in the shower and do shower stuff right? 😂😂

     After the shower I get out and blow dry and straighten my hair and do my makeup looking medium good today with blush, mascara, foundation and eyeliner
I pick out some tight black ripped skinny jeans and a pink blouse  with a little white jacket and my white vans.

   I pick up my phone and see the messages

- Jake
   "Gabbie are you okay I'm sorry about melody"
 
"Plz gabbie awnser me!"

"Why won't u talk to me"

  " I wish I could explain but cant"

" I'm sorry, I really am she doesn't know how to shut up and listen but I love her I really do"

  "Plz"

"I miss you gabbie"

   "Why am I still texting this is pointless"

  "Ughhh I hate myself"

" please this is killing me"

  " I showed up but your mom said you were not home"

   " I just seen you in the window this is killing me"

  I text back "Why didn't you tell me about her?" "And you dont care or you would have said something"

   I unplug my phone and walk downstairs before sitting at my table and eating some cereal then when the clock hits 6:15 I walk outside and get in my car.

   I seen u sit down in yours and look in your mirror and you look sad for a minute I thought I seen guilt until she pointed at me the girl who called me a hoe and u laugh and shook your head.

   I wanted to cry but I knew I couldn't let you get to me. So I take a breath and drive off I get to the stop sign before the school and see every one driving around and and I pull in and walk out as soon as I walk into the school I see all the unfamiliar faces and am instantly reminded of how alone I actually am.

   You tried to talk to me today but i couldn't bring myself to say a word to you I just walked off you looked guilty but I didn't care I saw how you acted and what u felt and idc anymore I'm gonna find someone rather I like it or not because I'm not wasting my time on you anymore.