No one knows but me,
How much I want to simply disappear sometimes.
To go anywhere beautiful and not have to deal with others
What they don’t understand is I want to be by myself
I want to be isolated in a closet with only my disgrace and shame to confront
To scream and shout and blame and accuse and pound on the walls
To wallow in my disappointment, my despair and my anger
I want to face myself and tell me that’s not who I am! I decide me! But I don’t
I let things build up to where I explode in my stubbornness to protect me and only me.
I’m more selfish than one can know
Maybe they already do and that’s why they’re so quick to tear down
I appear uncaring but I’m weak in my emotions
I couldn’t bullshit them or my thoughts if I tried.
