Make A Move (Celebrity Big Brother (A James Maslow Story) *On Hold*

Eighteen: A Deep Conversation

*Mia's P.O.V*

It was after the nomination ceremony and I saw Shannon hugging Ross. I looked at James and he knew that I was worried.

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Diary Room

Mia: Right now, I have to think about James and I.But it also doesn't hurt to think about my other ally and friend Shannon. I mean out of all three of us, one of us needs to play in the veto comp and hopefully let the nominations stay in place so she or James don't go up.

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It was a little later and we were all out by the fire pit. We had some wine and we were talking about our families back home, and how we were missing them. Ross and Ari were also talking about how Ross's mom and Ari's dad has cancer, and how Marissa was a survivor of cancer. I was cuddled up next to James under the blankets. I was falling asleep when I heard my name.

"Mia," Ross says.

"I'm awake," I said getting up a bit. They all laughed. I grabbed my wine and took a sip. "Okay, that's better. I'm used to sleeping beside James, so...."

"We were just talking about who we miss out of all of our family members," Ross says. "Who do you miss?" I looked down

"It's kind of hard to miss someone who isn't really here anymore," I said.

"What are you talking about Mia?" James asked me.

"My mom had me when she was twenty years old, so that took a toll on my parents, to try and be this... A perfect person, when your mom was only twenty and your dad was only twenty-two," I said. "My family has a long line of being suicidal and having depressing thoughts, which lead me into my teen years. But... I think the big thing that made me depress during my teen years, is what happen to me when I was eight years old. I was playing the backyard with my toys, and my dad, he was sitting there watching me. My mom was in the kitchen cooking lunch, like she would always do. Anyway, as I was playing with my toys, I was not paying attention to my dad, but I guess he went inside, got his gun, and shot himself in the backyard." I saw Marissa put her hand over her mouth. I saw other mouth drop to the ground.

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Diary Room

Ross: There's a lot of things we don't know about each other, and Mia is one of the most mysterious houseguests ever to come on Big Brother. And just hearing what happen to her dad, makes me realize why she is so mysterious. She's lost at times. Because of what happened to her.

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"Oh my god," Shannon says.

"That's heavy," Ross says. I nodded.

"My mom saw what happen and called the police saying that her husband shot himself in the head with a gun and needed an ambulance. Before I could turn to see my dad's dead body, my mother rushed out, picked me up. Did not care how heavy I was, and rushed me inside. But I saw a glimpse of my father's dead body with blood everywhere... I'm not even going into how fucked up it was for me," I said.

"I bet it was," Omarosa says. I nodded.

"Very fucked up. It leads me to a very depressing path into my teen years," I continue. "I would always, always try to kill myself, not only because of that day, but because people were calling me names in school, pushing me into lockers, and just playing the scaring pranks on me."

"Do you remember any of the pranks they played on you?" Metta asked. I nodded.

"I remember this one time, it was around Prom season and everyone was asking someone to prom," I started. "I'm not the type to get asked to prom, because I was ugly, fat and unattractive. So the most popular guy in my high school asked me to prom. Of course, I said yes, thinking that this was true. So he dragged me along until the night of the prom. I was all dressed up and ready to go. he texted me saying he was coming up to my house in a limo. So as dumb as I was, I ran out to see him, and he was standing up from the rooftop, so he could see me. But instead of smiling when he saw me, there was this girl that came out of the rooftop and smirked at me. Not long he threw an egg at me and it hit my head. Then he called out 'ugly fat suicidal  bitch.'"