I remember that day like it was yesterday. Izzy would get so distracted by everything, she would she a baby in a stroller and make funny faces just so she can say.
"Look Luke Look! I made him laugh!" she would clench on my arm jumping up and down as I just chuckled at her.
On every ride she would grab my hand and squeeze it, even on the little ones but i found it extremely adorable. Or how if she saw a food stand she would run over to it and say
"oh my god Luke its cotton candy! its cotton candy!"
"its a chocolate covered banana!"
"Its a cookie with and Ice cream scoop!"
this that and such.
I swear that girl can eat constantly and never gain a pound and even if she did shes gorgeous and food is food! it taste great I would rather eat food and gain a few pounds than restrict myself.
I specifically remember this one ride. It was huge and holy shit the drop was strait down, there was at least 9 loops, but the bright red color and flashing lights drew everyones attention.
"We have to go on it" I say sharing a banana split with my girlfriend. She looks to where I'm looking, and the only time i saw her this scared was when we were leaving a club and the cops decided to pull our drunk asses over.
"Ummm, L-Luke I would rather not"
She cringes at the ride "Its not that I'm scared, i-its just Ive eaten a lot and i don't want to puke on you." she gives me a smile that looks really awkward and scared, i can tell you this know it was the funniest shit i have ever seen.
"Baby its okay, I know your scared so you can just Hold my hand the whole time" i try to ease her by rubbing my hand on her knee.
"I d-dont know, god it looks terrifying , but.."
"You will be fine" i smile "I'll be right next to you going through the exact same thing you are, and plus if we die, we die together" I tease her
"Okay" her voice is shaking but she giggles "lets get this over with" she smirks at me. And with that we throw away our food and head to the ride.
"The Snipper!" The sign reads. The wait didn't take long, I mean is anyone really gonna be at the fair on a tuesday afternoon, we sit in our seats and there was so many bars gosh it was annoying! first we had to put on a seatbelt! and then on of the things that go over your shoulders and after that a cage type thing. I can tell Izzy was nervous, when ever she was her eyebrows would be curved downwards and the tip of her nose would be a light shade of pink, almost like a coral, and she would breathe through her mouth. She grabbed my hand as the countdown begun.
"10-9-8...."
"you okay"
she nodded quick and i gave her hand a tight squeeze.
"4-3-2.." her eyes slammed shut and prepared herself for what was about to come in literally 1 second.
"1! GO!" With that the ride shot up and i didn't even know which way we were going it was all happening so quick and it was going so fast that the wind forced my head to the back of my seat. first loop, second loop, drop, turn, spiral was repeated over and over for a good minute and a half, thats when the ride came to a end.
"you oka-" oh my god, the way she looked right now was damn fucking hot her hair was matted down to her face and her lips were pouted as she blew upwards trying to get a few strands out of her face do to that fact that we were strapped in.
"Yeah that was actually really fun" She looks over to me and laughs "Why are you looking at me like you've seen a ghost?"
"Your just s-" they unstrap us interrupting me.
"Please step to the right and exit" The man says.
"As I was saying, You looked so fuckable right there with your hair in your face and shit, it reminds me of when i pound into y-"
"Luke!" she covers my mouth with her hand even though it doesn't really do anything.
"What?" I chuckle. Shes used to me talking about fucking her.
"Were in public! Around children!" She throughs her hands in the air as shes trying not to smile. But I simply laugh at her.
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God i miss that day, basically my last day with her where she wanted to be around me. Everyday for the past month Ive called her, left voicemails, texts, even fucking letters! I still hate myself for what I did and I don't blame her for hating me. My thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door.
"What the fuck do you want!" i shout to who ever the fuck is knocking.
"Well its Michael" He says softly and sits on my bed that I once shared with the love of my god damn fucked up life. "Well Izzy called me"
I turn to face him my eyes still puffy, hair resting on my forehead, my cheeks probably bright red with pale spots due to tears, basically looked like hell shit on me. "Continue" I say barley audible.
"Well she was drunk, actually scratch that, she was wasted and She kept asking me to give the phone to you because she deleted your number or some shit but anyw-"
"what the fuck!" i tackle him and pin him down on the bed "She wanted to fucking talk to me and you Didn't give me the fucking phone" I grab his collar and slam his head into the bed trying to do as much damage i can but hell I'm on a fucking bed.
"Luke! Luke let me explain!"
"No! you. know. i. love. her." in between each word i slam his head down "You know i would want to talk to her!"
"She was wasted you fucking idiot!" And he pushes me off of him, "now before you go Sysco crazy, acting like a bitch and doing things you might regret let me finish" he say calming down through his last few words. "When she called and asked for you she saying that she loved you and her needed you, and you and I both know how that girl is when she is wasted for god sake she was talking to Ashton's fucking shoe confessing her love to it, but anyways she was just going on and on! she told me how she touches herself thinking about you"
I have tried to be quiet for too long "Why didn't you give me the phone" i say through my teeth.
"Let me finish, I told her that she was drunk off her ass and to call me in the morning"
"And...." god Michael your story is going to slow I think to myself.
"Well, she called me, but I didn't answer because for one. i thought you should answer it and two I think she might still love you, plus i don't wanna here her talking about master bating" he tells me and hands me his phone "Her name is under Izz Glue just dial her up" With that he leaves the room and Im quick to click her name on the screen, within 2 rings she answers.
"Hello?" she says
