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A valentines day entry. Got inspired by just seeing a lot of flowers, chocolates and teddy bears on Baliuag last night. It sucks being single when V-day comes.
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I don't know what happened when the month of February started. We're okay. As in okay. Not until you started being cold and you started doing all the shits you shouldn't have done. Nagduda tuloy ako sa feelings mo dahil putek, wala pa tayong one year! But me being so understanding tries to understand you. Pero meron pala talagang mga bagay na kapag nahaluan na ng tsismis ng iba at pagdududa, lalong mas mahirap intindihan.It was the tenth day of February and it's almost one week since our last talk. Wait, let me rephrase that. It's been almost one week since I tried to talk to you. And you don't. Because you're damn busy!How do I know? Sabi mo eh.
It was another normal day for me at school,ang kaibahan nga lang wala akong oras para tumanga o kumain. Sa dami ba naman ng kailangan kong tapusin. I am doing a report on my applied subject when your name flashes on my phone screen. Natulala pa nga ako. Good thing my seatmate poked me and said that someone's calling. I hesitated to answer your call you know. But then, because I missed you, I did. Ang awkward nga nung una kase walang nagsasalita. Then I heard you.
"Fall." I gulped as I heard you whispered my name softly. Feeling ko nga nabingi ako kase hindi ko na marinig ang nasa paligid ko.
"Hey Fall? Are you there?" I blinked and gulped again. I cleared my throat.
"Yes. Why do you call?" Narinig kong bumuntong hininga ka.
"Are you free? " Natulala ako sa tanong mo. Finally huh, may free time ka na! I can feel my anger starting to fill my heart.
"No. Madami akong gagawin. Bakit hindi si Faye ang ayain mo? I'm sure she's free. " Sagot ko. I know it's my ego talking but the heck I care. I'm done understanding your shits and it's time for you to taste your own medicine. Aba, ano yon? Kahit busy ako iiwan ko mga ginagawa ko para sa sayo eh ikaw nga tong ni hindi makapaglaan ng oras para sakin? Asa.
"Look Fall, I know you're mad at me but please, hear me out. "
"Here out my face! I'm busy Cloud. Stop pestering me because I didn't do it to you. " Sagot ko. I heard you groaned and I bet you're facepalming yourself .
"Fall... "
"Fall! Hinahanap ka ni Chad! " I heard my friend, Saira called me. Chad is my crush. And I don't have any freaking idea why he's calling me. But I think it's a blessing in disguise for me. And a threat to you.
"Sige na. Gotta go. " And I ended the call before you can even speak. Rude, I know, but I couldn't care less. Lumabas ako at nandun nga si Chad. Pero hindi ko naman alam na sa susunod na paglabas ko ikaw na ang dadatnan ko.
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February 12, wala akong sinasagot sa mga tawag mo. Or either your texts. I just want you to learn and know na hindi mo dapat ginagawa ang ginawa mo sakin. Hindi masarap sa pakiramdam at gusto kong maramdaman mo. Experience is the best teacher nga diba? I still remembered when you went to my school and I didn't talk to you. Kitang kita ko ang frustration mo, lalo na nung hinabol ako ni Chad at ibinigay sakin ang hiniram niyang filler. Mas sumama pa ang loob mo nung sumabay sya sakin at nagkwentuhan kami. Ni hindi ko na nga napansin na umalis ka na. I admit, nadisappoint ako. Sumuko ka agad eh.
Did I tell you I hate surprises? I think I don't. Because you did surprised me. Late na kong nakauwi at nagulat ako ng abutan kita sa bahay. I was like what the freaking are you doing here?! But I can't tell you to go to he'll because you look dead tired and I'm not that heartless you see. Just one look at you, and I know that I'm going to loose again.
