「 blush 」

sunflowers | jimin

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'Only when the last ray of sunlight goes off, I'll be gone...'

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'Jimin-shi !' I called, as you turned around and nodded blankly.

'You feel better now ? Do you need me to buy you break-'

'No. I don't need you.' You answered coldly.

My heart thumped, I accepted it. You hated me, and you only loved her. You loved her, who did not care about you.

What could I do more ?

You were hopeless, suffering from a car accident. It'd been 5 days since you stayed in the hospital. Everyday, I'd see you crying like a child; everyday, I'd see you mentioning her name.

I couldn't stand it.

I also couldn't do anything.

I watched you in silence, I touched your face gently when you were asleep. Sometimes, I wished that you would love me back. Yet, at the end of the day, I realized it would not happen...unless I was that girl.

Her name was Hyemi, the lucky girl who you loved whole-heartedly.

Back in high school, you dated her for a month until she wanted to break up. You were broke, as your love for her still remained.

We used to be friends, and you used to tell me everything about you and Hyemi. Then, for some mystic reasons, you started to hate me. You said I was the one who caused all of the problems. Even though, I'd not done anything.

But that's okay. At least, I could stay by your side.

It was a sunny morning, sunlight dazzling through the wooden windows. Your eyes heaved, staring at the wall without even blinking. While, I, was gazing at you.

You were beautiful. You had those traits of a naive angel, who was lost at the sight of earth. For me, you were also the sun; that would always shine bright, no matter what happen. The sun; that would always being looked up to by many other creatures, which included me.

I thought I could've gave up, I thought I could stop loving you. But every time you smiled, I felt trapped.

'Y/N...' You mumbled out of sudden, your breath harsh.

'Y-Yes.'

'Go home.'

You glanced at me, then back at the wall.

'Jimin...you're still weak...'

'I'm fine.'

'No, you need someone to look after you, or else-'

'I said I'm fine ! You're not even Hyemi !'

You yelled, your ears turned red. Right, the only person in your mind was always her. Only her...

I knew my heart was sinking, I knew I could tear up anytime, so I left.

That afternoon, I came to find Hyemi.

'I'm doing this, for Park Jimin'

'If I made you misunderstood in the past, then...sorry. Jimin needs you.'

'I'm sorry, Hyemi.'

'And thank you, Hyemi.'

...

'Thank you, Y/N.'

You grinned for the first time after 2 months, as you held her hand tightly. She looked at you, adored.

'It was all misunderstood, right ?'

Her voice sounded sweeter than ever, while you gazed at her unstoppable.

'Yeah, thanks Y/N, we are together now...'

'Y-yeah. I'm happy for you guys.' I forced a smile, even though, I was being injured.

You were ecstatic. The way you stared at her was lovely, yet...it hurt. It hurt me, a lot.

I watched the sun set, when the sky was painted by the reddish color. Saying the last goodbye to you and Hyemi, I left the hospital. That time, it was real.

'Now, I can finally let go...'

I didn't know what to do, or where to go. I just simply walk, before I uncertainly stopped my track by the horizon; that I could see the sun easily.

Beautiful- the sun - you.

A year before, everything was normal.
A year before, I was in love with you.
A year before, you didn't fall in love with her...yet.

I missed how we shared stories, missed how we were together.

"Sometimes, we have to let things go."

Because after all, you were still the sun, that shone brightly above the huge universe. Whereas, I was like a sunflower; that always looked up to you, though never being noticed.

The last ray of sunlight had already gone off.

And I supposed, I needed to go.

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For my Chimmy.