More Than an Experiment

Chapter 6: Confused

*Chloe's POV*
     I shut the door behind Beca as she smiled at me and walked out. I turned to look at Aubrey, expecting her to tell me how amazing Beca was, even though I already knew. However, she just stared at me with wide, curious eyes.
     "Okay... so um, what the fuck was all that about Chloe?"
      I froze. Aubrey and I have been best friends for years, she knows pretty much everything about me. It must have been obvious to her I was flirting with Beca, but I attempted to play it off anyways. I shrugged my shoulders, obliviously asking "what are you talking about?"
     She sighed and subtly rolled her eyes at me, responding in a loving tone. "Listen Chlo, we've been best friends and roommates for a little over three years now; I know more about you than we'd both like to admit." We both chuckled a bit before she continued. "I know when something is up with you. So, you can spill, or your special little Alt friend won't be joining the Bella's. I think we can agree that we both want her too. Maybe in different ways, though..." Aubrey winked at me.
     I was shocked at Aubrey's response. I tried to shake off her comment about wanting Beca, but I think she was right. I sighed. "Okay fine..." I said after a few moments of silence, "but only because we need Beca." I said as I walked over to her bed and sat down next to her. I turned to face Aubrey, but when we looked at each other my eyes began tearing up a bit. I did my best to keep a small smile on my face, attempting to mask my emotions. Aubrey looked worried at this point and place her hands on top of mine, looking me in the eyes. "Chloe, you know I'm here for you and love you no matter what, right? You can tell me anything."
     I sniffled my nose and leaned on Aubrey's shoulder with a warm tear running down my cheek. "I'm just so confused, Aubs. It's scaring me."
     Aubrey paused for a moment, waiting for me to say more, but I remained silent as I was choking down tears. Finally, she broke the silence, asking me "Confused about what? Beca?"
      I tensed at the question. It made my stomach drop hearing it out loud. I looked at her vulnerably, and she looked into my watery eyes, trying her best to read me. I just shyly nodded yes. She gave me a small smile and said "it's okay" before letting me lay my head on her lap. I cried for a few minutes and she stayed silent and played with my hair to help comfort me.
     "Aubs?" I whispered after calming down. She smiled at me. "What's up pretty girl?" I rolled my eyes, giving her a small smile. I knew she was just trying to make me feel better because I'm super ugly when I cry.
     "Do you remember that time our freshman year I thought I liked Amber or something like that? I couldn't explain it, because the thought of being gay never crossed my mind. I always dated and hooked up with the hottest guys, but Amber was just different... special maybe? I don't know, whatever."
     Aubrey nodded. "Yeah, I remember. Why?" She already basically knew what was going on, but she knew I needed to hear it from myself and talk about it.
     I continued, "well... that's how I feel about Beca, but this time it's way worse. And I know it's weird because we just met yesterday and she totally freaked out, but there's something about her that really captivated me. Not to mention her eyes...." I trail off for a second, biting my lip without realizing, but Aubrey noticed. "Her sarcasm and whit gives me butterflies, and my heart definitely skipped a few beats when we were in the shower last nig—" I stopped talking instantly after I remembered I haven't told Aubrey about that yet. Her eyes shot open and she over-dramatically dropped her jaw.
     "Wait... you hooked up with Beca in the shower last night didn't you?! I thought you were fucking Andy again!" She had a devious smirk on her face and was basically shouting at this point.
     I shush her. "Shhhhh! No, I wasn't hooking up with Beca, it wasn't like that. It could have been though, you should have seen the way she looked at me." I wink at Aubrey and we share a small laugh before I continued, "I was hooking up with Andy when Beca came into the bathroom to take a shower, and she was singing. You heard how good she is, so you know, I followed her to the shower she was in. I didn't even know it was her until I peeked through the curtain. When I realized it was the girl from the activities fair, and that she lied to us about singing, I ripped the curtains open. I was just trying to get her to join the Bella's, but I got really flustered when I saw her naked. Seriously, she's got the best tits.... you saw them tonight right?"
      Aubrey rolled her eyes. "So you just think she's hot?"
     "No, it's more than that, Aubs. Everything about her in that moment drove me crazy" I smiled, remembering the feeling.
      Aubrey laughed. It honestly kind of hurt a bit, so I snapped back. "I know it sounds stupid and cliche, but it's true, okay? I don't know what to do!"
     She stopped laughing and looked at me seriously. "Come on, Chlo. I'm not laughing at that! You really just walked into her shower ass naked?" She laughed again, but this time I joined her. "Yup!" I responded, "and we sang together." I winked at Aubrey. "But... that's not the point. Please help me, Aubs. What do I do?"
     Aubrey took a deep breath and just studied me for a few moments.
     "Chloe, maybe it's something you should try out if it's on your mind this much? You should experiment; poke around the edges. You and I have both seen the way Beca blushes around you. She looks at you like you're some type of angel." Aubrey giggled, "I can only imagine the way she acted towards you in the shower."
     I smiled a little bit and agreed before quietly saying "but Aubs, what if it's not like that? Maybe she's actually gay, and I'm not sure. I mean, she's totally my polar opposite. If I just fuck her, it might end up hurting her feelings."
     I looked over at Aubrey. She had a smile on her face and an eyebrow cocked. This is Aubrey's "I have an idea" face, and I'm not sure I want to hear what it is.
     "That's it, Chlo!" Aubrey exclaimed. "We'll let Beca into the Bella's, obviously because she's good and we need her. BUT, also so you can get closer to Beca and scope out the waters!" Aubrey winked. I'm not sure if she meant that sexually or not. She continued "if she wants to fuck you, so be it! If you like it maybe you're gay; if you don't, you're probably not! Unless she just sucks." Aubrey chuckled at her own comment.
     I was hesitant. "But what if things get weird? It could ruin the Bella's..." I started rambling and Aubrey cut me off.
     "Just give it some time Chlo! Become her friend, find out for yourself. Beca obviously likes you, find out how much." Aubrey smiled. "Tomorrow you'll grab Beca for aca-initiation night by yourself. It'll give you guys some time to talk alone, and hopefully be clothed." She shortly laughed at her own joke and smiled at me, adding a sincere "You'll be okay."
     I smiled back and chuckled a bit. "Thanks Aubs, you're the best." I was surprised Aubrey was so accepting, especially because it's Beca. She gave me a hug and said "let's get started on all this Bella stuff now, we have a big day ahead of us tomorrow." I nodded and we got to work. This is going to be interesting.