Soooo the kids don't have school for 2 weeks and mom is having us go see our family in the south. Nessa hasn't been talking much lately. She acts as though she's fine but I can hear her sobbing at night. But she still doesn't say anything. She acts so tough all the time and doesn't realize it's okay to be vulnerable and show how you're feeling. Don't get me wrong my sister is tough and you'll never see her break nobody can get her to budge unless she wants to. But I know when she's hurting and I know her, very damn well. I wish she's be more open because bottling your emotions is completely unhealthy. But she's so stubborn it doesn't matter.
We gotta take a little break on the find Lucas operation because me and Nessa are visiting family. She hates the fact that he's gone man.
It's like 1 am over here and our plane leaves at 3 so we gotta get ready to go. I put my sweatpants on and a sweatshirt and then grab my bags loading them into the car. Then I got in the front wit my mom and fell asleep waiting till we get to the airport. Me my mom and sister all sit next to each other and I'm in the middle.
Nessa🤙🏽💕
I'm on the plane. Headphones in and my hood up. I had on my sweatpants and a hoodie and I was just tired and bored. While we were on the plane I aaa reading this book called Persepolis and I was listening to some music. They brought food around and I just ate the cereal then I went to sleep later. Time went by and soon my brother was waking me up telling me it's time to get off the plane. Now I really didn't feel like getting up so what did Kev do. He carried me till we got to the car. I loaded the bags in and closed my eyes drifting back to sleep. The heat didn't hit me that hard down here in Jackson, Mississippi since I live in Cali but the mosquitoes just slightly annoyed.
When we got to my the hotel everyone was still asleep. My brother is sharing a room with some of ours cousins and I am too. We have conjoined rooms though. I put my stuff away and went in the shower cos I was sweating while I was sleep.
I washed my hair and left it curly and out cos i didn't have much idea what to do with it and then I threw on some all white ripped jeans and a burgundy crop top, wit my retro Jordans, gold hoops and sealed together with clear lip gloss.
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When I left out the bathroom my cousin Sheree was up and dressed on her phone. We squealed seeing each other hugging I haven't seen her since Christmas but I missed her so much.
Sheree is a year older than me (she just turned 20) and she models. She always takes me on fun adventures and we end up always have a bomb ass time. My other cousins woke up from our noise.
Me and Sheree went towards Nacy and Lauren's beds and yanked the covers off them. They groaned covering their faces wit the pillow and soon got up and dressed. The boys were all playing fortnite.
Sheree, So Ness how you've been holding up
Nessa, Honestly idk I feel numb this trip has been the only thing making me happy again
Lauri, Awee come here Nessie
Nessa, It's been so hard without knowing he's safe and okay and I can't even talk to him anymore. His aunt calls me and asks where he is and it was heart wrenching explaining to her he's gone because of his involvement wit me. I just don't know what to do anymore yo
Ofc my cousins know the 411 on me and Lucas they're like my sisters that annoy my heart. But they all gave me a big hug and decided it'd be best for me to just get my mind off of Lucas and relax. We went out to the mall and just did some shopping walking around and stuff. Since I'm "instagram famous" a lot of people in Jackson noticed me and asked for pictures, why I'm down here and stuff. I lowkey forgot I didn't tell anyone about me being in Jackson for two weeks.
Sheree 🤤🧡
As time went by we soon hadda go back to the hotel and meet up with our family. There was aunts, uncles, grandparents cousins and so many more damn people I didn't even know. We were all at this big field watching a football game having a barbecue.
There were other people at the field the whole time though but we still were having fun. Lauren was making little glances at this boy she saw and he was eying her DOWN. We were all laughing and giggling then the boys came over and were being completely over protective as always. It was hilarious, my brother Isaiah came up and was tripping tripping, we call him I-O
I-O, Do I needa say sum Ree?!
Sheree, No I-O, I'm 20 years old I don't need you to be so protective
I-O, Yea ard come on we goin back to the game
Sheree, I'm grown I don't need to go anywhere I-O
I-O, Sheree I'm not dealing wit this now let's go.
We all went back to the game knowing how they gon get we really don't need that they're embarrassing as it is. In public it'd just be a mess🙄
Aunt Carrie, Nessa don't ya think that's too much skin?
Nessa, Well Auntie I'm 18 and my mom picks out some of my clothes so talk to her
Aunt Carrie, Mhm okay walking round here look like a
Auntie Rosa, Like a what?! My daughter is 18 legally grown, has her own job, gets good grades has a lot of college acceptances and is a good kid so she can wear a crop top that shows her stomach with ripped jeans. It's hot as hell in Jackson anyway some skin won't kill my baby.
Nessa, Momma come on let's just watch the game before it ends
Auntie Rosa, Nessa you go watch the game I'll be there later.
We all just left and went back to the hotel. This wasn't the best way to start a family reunion but honestly me my brother and cousins are gonna have a good time regardless until next time we see each other during the Summer at Auntie Rosa's house.
I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT FOR YOU GUYS. The book will be coming to an end soon in a few months.
