Believe Me

Chapter 18

Too Much Going On

Shortly after we all talk for a while, we get up and decide to go to bed.

Everyone's in their room including me. But I can't sleep. I just have so much happening in my mind. Too much going on. There's still stuff for the loft we have to take care of, like some finances and furniture. And what's more important, is the things involving Sarah, my biggest worry is getting followed or found by our parents once we take her.

"Can't sleep?" I look over to see Elliot sitting on my special rug. I sit up and rub my eyes.

"No. Far too much to think of. Too much to worry about."

"I completely understand what you're going through."

"How?" I ask.

"I never sleep for one thing. With me being a ghost in all. But I do know the feeling of having so much on your mind, that it keeps you from something. And what has always helped me is talking with a person who truly understands what you are going through."

"Do I even have to tell you my problems right now? Or do you already know them?"

"I'm pretty sure I know everything. Is one involving Sarah?"

"Yes."

"And does the other part involve the loft?"

"You don't miss a thing." I say with a giggle.

"No I don't." He says as he stands up and walks over to my bed and sits on it at the end of my feet. Elliot settles himself facing towards me. "Tell me everything."

"Well to begin with, I love being in this loft, but I don't have a job and am not quite sure how Zach, Jessica, and I are going to be able to pay for everything."

"I think you have forgotten about your trust fund. And it's easy getting a job in New York. I already got you one. You start waitressing at Western Diner Thursday at three. Next problem."

"I totally forgot about my trust fund. And thank you Elliot. My Sarah problem has multiple problems with it."

"Like..."

"Like being followed once we get Sarah away from them. Once I get her, I don't want to loose her again."

"You won't. She's not going anywhere. Once we adopt her, she can't be with them anyways. It would be considered kidnap."

"Ok. And what are we going to do if she has forgotten about me, or doesn't like me anymore."

"She remembers you. She asks about you all the time and prays for you to come home every night before she goes to bed."

I look down at my hands I've been fiddling with the whole conversation. "Elliot... What if... What's if I'm not a good enough sister for her, being her guardian and everything."

"Kate, you're going to be the best guardian she's ever going to have." He stands up in front of my bed and turns towards me. "You're going to be fine. And she will too. Everything is going to be fine. Now get some sleep. Good night Kate."

"Good night Elliot." I put my head on my pillow and by the time I look back to where Elliot was standing, he's gone, lost in another shadow that soon will be destroyed by the early morning sun. I close my eyes and fall back asleep lost in thought.

I wake up at six because I can't sleep. I walk into the kitchen and make myself a bowl of cereal.

Once I finish eating I put my empty bowl in our big silver sink. I walk into my bedroom and find Zach and Jessica dress and sitting on my bed which they had already made.

"What are you guys doing up so early?" I ask their smiling faces.

"Zach and I knew that you would be up this early. We just wanted to be there to support you. We know how hard this is for you an dap want to be there through every step of this journey your going through."

"Well thank guys. So what do you say. Leave at seven get there at 11? It's right when she goes to lunch."

"Sure. But it's in half an hour and you need to get dressed. So get going." Zach stands up and gives my butt a little tap on the way out. Jessica follows Zach into the hall and then split into their rooms.

I take my first shower in my loft. I may never leave this bathroom ever again. It's about the size of a small bedroom. The floors are marble and so is the sink. There's a walk in shower, and right beside it is a huge marble bath tub. I think I'm in love.

Once I get out of the shower I rush into my room and put on a knew length black pencil skirt and tuck in a white ruffled blouse under my skirt.

I go back into my bathroom and put on my foundation, and add some blush. Then I put on a light coat of rye shadow and add some mascara to bring volume to my eye lashes. Then I take my hair out of a wet towel and blow dry it and put it into a sock bun at the very top of my head.

I walk back into my room and go to my jewelry box and pick out a pearl necklace that comes with matching earrings and a matching bracelet. I put them all on and grab a pair of simple tan open toed high heels.

I once more walk back into my bathroom and look into the mirror. I look very mature. Which is what I aimed for. If I can convince myself that I'm a mature adult, then it can convince anybody that looks at me I'm a mature adult.

I walk into the kitchen where I see Jessica dressed normally, but Zach dressed in a suit. "Why are you wearing a fancy suit?" I ask as I keep walking towards them.

"It's for when we go to the child adoption agency. Jessica will be in the car waiting, and I'm going in there with you."

"Thank you guys. Really. This means a lot to me and I appreciate you being here with me through every step of the way." I give them both a big hug and then we go down the elevator and take off to go get my Sarah.