BIG BROTHER [GRETHAN] ((DISCONTINUED))

BIG BROTHER

GRAYSON POV

Me and my brother Ethan both grew up in a small town called New Jersey with our mom. We didn't have much money growing up and our mom was a single mother working as a waitress...meaning we didn't see her most of the time, cause she would take every shift she could to support her small family along with my baby sister on the way.

Since we didn't have much things, me and Ethan would always play together, enjoying each others company. Most of my happiest memories were with Ethan and I can't even picture a life without him. He was always over protective of me as well and that's what I loved most about him. Even if it was the smallest things like holding my hand when walking across the street or shooing away the monsters from underneath my bed. He was my super hero. He was also a very supportive and hard worker when our dad left us, meaning he became the new man of the house.

Ethan was a bit older than me by two years. Even though he wasn't that much older than me he would still treat me as if I was his little baby, and sometimes I honestly didn't mind. I was a really sensitive and awkward kid growing up meaning I had no friends....at all. Well of course I had Ethan and he was the only one I needed in my life.

He would always stick up for me and comfort me when I needed it. When it came to family events or talking with new people he would always help me introduce myslef to others knowing I had trouble speaking. He was the slightly more smarter and popular one....I was born with a few disabilities but Ethan said it was all just in my head and that it was all bullshit what the doctors said.

Ethan hanged out with most of the popular kids at school and would always try to invite me over but I would always shake my head being a bit too intimadated by them. Sometimes Ethan would break away from his own group to be with me, we would always have fun when we were together. So I didn't feel as bad when taking him away from his other friends. He was my best friend and would always help me with my school work if It got too hard. He was my light...but as he grew older...it darkened.

Once Ethan got a bit older heading into his teens, he started working as well to support our family. From then on he started acting different and a bit more agressive than usual. Most of the time he would take it out on my mom but never on me. I felt bad for my mom, not only that but she was pregnant as well. I tried sticking up for her one time but quickly choked on my words and ended up running to my room crying in my bed....but soon to be greeted by Ethan's precense as he layed behind me and wrapped his arms around me, repeatedly apologizing to me as his tears streamed down my back.

For days and weeks it was always the same...until one night it all changed.

*FLASH BACK*

"I'm fucking sick of you're bullshit mom!"

I hear Ethan's voice boom through the house. I quickly run out the living room and see Ethan with his back pack heading towards the door.

"Where the hell do you think you're going?!"  My mom screeches, tagging close behind Ethan.

"I'm leaving! I'm fucking tired of taking care of your lazy ass mom! This is why dad left you! You crazy acholic whore!"

"Don't you DARE use that tone with me mister!"

"It's fucking true though! You're gonna end up killing that poor baby before it's even born you monster!"

"THAT'S IT! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE ETHAN!"

"Gladly..."

"E-Ethan...w-wait...d-don't...l-l-leave...m-me..."

Tears start filling my eyes and I start choking on my words. I never did this when I was with Ethan...it was different this time.

He quickly grabs me as he caresses my cheek to comfort me than pulls me into a deep hug. My tears absorbing in his shirt.

"I'm so sorry Gray...I just can't live this way anymore. I'm leaving to find a better place..."  He whispers in my ear as he rocks me back and forth.

"T-take....m-m-me...w-with you-"  I plead him as he quickly cuts me off.

"No Gray. It's way too dangerous where I'm going. Stay here and take care of that baby. I love you so much. Please stay safe." He says with a shakey voice as he rips his grip away from mine and walks out the door with his back pack.

"N-N-NO-O! E-E-E-...p-p-pl-ease! D-d-d-do-n't....g-g-go"

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After he left I became a stuttering mess and grew into a deep depression. The baby my mom was pregnant with died and that ruined her, making her drink more and quit her job. We were than living off the money she saved up for the baby but then soon started  working again but as a stripper because she was desperate and her old job wouldn't take her back.

This was a dark time in my life...the one time where I needed Ethan and he wasn't there. I waited for him to come back everyday but he never did so I ended up self harming myself since I didn't have Ethan to reduce the pain for me. I tried many times to commit suicide but would always hesitate last second thinking Ethan would walk through that door...

He never did...