suffocate

whole

I want to feel something but theres this hole in my chest

And its sucking everything in

We're all cutting ties

Every sense of security i had is gone

Safety? Ive never felt it

Love? What's that never smelled it

Feelings? I have too many im melting

On the floor once again left alone

Never once did i have a home

All these efforts put to waste

Its not okay and its not getting better

Its not going away

Another day another 24 hours gone to shit

Where did my energy go?

Where did you go?

You were holding me the other day saying it'd all be fine

Now you won't look me in motherfucking eye

I guess it was too much to ask you to be my shoulder to cry

Maybe it was time for us to say goodbye

But that doesnt put all of my feelings to rest

That doesnt make me forget about the hole in my chest

I hope you feel better about yourself

After ditching me with all this shit on my back

Guess we both have a lot of baggage

But he stole my fucking innocence and you can't stick around and hold my hand?

What kind of asshole does that?

How the fuck do you look yourself in the mirror and see a good person?

I didnt look past your 3 million freckles and curly hair

But it was there

I didnt see it but it was there

You didnt care at all and i hate myself for not noticing

I was blinded by the playlists i made and the blanket in the backseat of your car

And the time you yelled you loved me at the stoplight, when i said i would kiss every single one of your freckles

I didnt see it but it was there

I didnt feel the emptiness behind your touch

I have no guts, no flesh im hollow

Still not bright enough to see that your fingertips couldn't fill me up

Two halves don't make a whole