I hadn't really slept that well. I had been staring into the wall for the better part of the night, contemplating if I was doing the right thing or not. If I was overreacting.. No.. I wasn't overreacting. I had zero tolerance to drugs. He knew that. He had known that all along and he still chose his bag of coke over me.
I had kept my phone off just in case he had tried to ring me. I didn't want to deal with him.
However, as I heard a knock on the door to my hotel room, I couldn't help but hope it was Alex and that it had all just been some bad dream. But I knew who it was. Yesterday, Jamie had told me that he would pick me up and take me to the San Fransisco-bound bus. I opened the door, still in my PJs.
"Mornin'," Jamie said. He was carrying two cups of coffee and a bag of croissants, "how are you holding up?"
I shrugged, "I've spent most of the night thinking about him. I don't know if this is the right thing to do."
"What; to go to San Francisco?"
I nodded, "yeah..leaving."
Jamie shrugged, "I can't tell you what to do. Maybe it'll be good on ya to get all your thoughts sorted out."
"Yeah, maybe," I nodded, "I've only known him for about a week. I might have forgotten his name in a month anyway."
"Yeah..." Jamie said, looking very unconvinced.
"How's he holding up?"
"After I left here yesterday, I went straight home. I could hear Matt scolding him all the way from the hallway. Didn't see Alex though."
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"Take care Rhea, yeah?" Jamie said as we hugged goodbye at the bus station in downtown L.A.
I was tearing up again, "I'm going to miss you," I whispered.
"Yeah, me too," he sighed, "I'm sure we'll see each other back home in England. I'll make sure of it!"
"Promise?"
He nodded, "now get on the bus, or it'll take off without you, you tosser!"
I sighed, "I guess this is it."
"This isn't it," Jamie laughed, "don't be melodramatic. This is just it for now."
"Yeah, you're right," I sighed and gave him one last hug before I boarded the bus.
-
Three hours into the bus drive, I decided to turn on my phone. I had to face Alex' texts at some point, I reasoned.
I didn't know what was worse; the fact that he had broken his promise or the fact that he hadn't even tried to text or call me once to win me back.
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Received at 12.06 p.m. from Matt Helders:
Hey Rhea
You alright in SF?
- MattSent at 02.03 p.m. to Matt Helders:
Hi Matt!
Went to Alcatraz. Was okay.
Pretty boring here. Miss you..Received at 02.05 p.m. from Matt Helders:
Come back, yeah? ;-)Sent at 02.37 p.m. to Matt Helders:
LOL! Flying home to London tomorrow.Received at 02.40 p.m. from Matt Helders:
Al says hi!Sent at 02.59 p.m. to Matt Helders:
Tell him to piss off.Received at 03.00 p.m. from Matt Helders:
Alright, alright. He doesn't know I'm texting you rn.
He's changed though. Not that much fun to be around..Sent at 03.34 p.m. to Matt Helders:
Sad that he needed coke to be fun, huh?Received at 03.36 p.m. from Matt Helders:
He doesn't. I just think he misses youSent at 04.09 p.m. to Matt Helders:
He hasn't reached out to me once.Received at 04.11 p.m. from Matt Helders:
I don't think he knows that you want him to contact you.Sent at 04.11 p.m. to Matt Helders:
I don't.
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