Can't Help but Love You *Paul Lahote Story*

Chapter Five

                                                       - Patricia -

Two hours after Paul had kissed me, I was laying on my bed and staring up at the ceiling, thinking. If Paul had kissed me, he had to like me, right? If he didn't like me, why kiss me? I groaned as I rubbed my temple with my pointer finger and I sat up, sliding on leg under me and letting the other one hang off the side of my bed. The sun was setting and it was getting cold in my room so I stood up and headed over to my closet where I grabbed a pair of pajama pants and then a tank top. I shimmied out of my clothes and quickly dressed and then as I walked over to the bathroom I rubbed my arms. I grabbed my brush and ran it through my long brown hair and then I smiled at myself in the mirror. 

  Then, there was a knock on my door. 

  I sighed and walked out of my bathroom and then headed for my bedroom door. I turned the knob and opened the door, gaping, as I saw who it was. 

  Jesse stood there with a shy smile on his face and he waved slightly at me. I opened my mouth but then quickly closed it, afraid of what I would say. I stepped out of my room and closed the door quietly behind me as I looked up at him. He took a quick step back, seeing that we were too close together and that made me smile. 

  "What do you want, Jesse?" I asked and Jesse grabbed my hands in his and I let him and then he began to speak. 

  "I'm so, so sorry for what I need, Tricia. It was wrong and disgusting and I've hated myself ever since. This isn't an excuse of why I did that to you but that was the week that I heard my mother had gotten cancer and I wasn't myself. I did things, horrible things, to you and for that I am so sorry." Jesse said but through the middle of his apology speech, I had looked down at our clasped hands and tears prickled at the edge of my eyes as I remembered that horrible night when Jesse raped me. 

  Jesse put his pointer finger under my chin and forced me to look at him and I did. Jesse was already crying and that made the tears come, they exploded out and I started bawling. I threw my arms around Jesse's neck and I stuffed my face against his chest. He put his arms around my waist and laid his chin on the top of my head and I continued to cry. 

  Jesse whispered things in my ear, calling me beautiful and other things like that and I listened to him. I couldn't help it. It felt like old times, when I was safe with Jesse and when I loved Jesse. 

  Jesse was my best friend but he was also my lover. 

  I sniffled and looked up at him and he wiped my eyes with the edge of his finger and then he kissed my forehead. "Your beautiful, Patricia, and so are your tears." then he wrapped me up in another big and I let him. I was tired of looking out for myself. Right now, I just wanted to be held by Jesse and that's what I got. 

  "Tricia!" Mom shouted from the bottom of the stairs and I could hear Dad whispering fiercely at her and I sighed as I grabbed Jesse's hand. I looked at him oh I the corner of my eye and he was staring at our clasped hands which made me blush as I then pulled him along after me. Mom was waiting at the bottom of the stairs as I knew she was and she smiled at me but then frowned when she looked at mien and Jesse's hand. 

  She sighed out of her nose and said, "Patricia, your father and I need to speak with you and Jesse." 

  I groaned and headed for the couch still holding Jesse's hand and he quickly let go of it as he saw that Dad was watching us.

  Way to be a man, Jesse. 

  I sat down with Jesse next to me but he wouldn't touch me so I just rolled my eyes and leaned forever as I put my elbow on my leg and my chin in the palm of my hand. Dad glanced at Jesse out of the corner of his eye as he looked at me and he cleared his throat. Mom came in right then and she sat down on dads lap. Haha! 

  "Patricia, your mother and I love you very much. Your our only child and if anything," Dad looked over at Jesse as he said that. "If anything happened to you, we would be devastated. A matter between you and Jesse has been brought to our attention and it better not happen again or someone will be very damaged." Dad said as he rubbed Moms back and she gave me a small smile. Jesse reached for my hand and his back straightened. 

  "Yes sir. You won't have to worry about anything because I love you daughter more than anything sir." Jesse said and I scooted closer to him and his arm went around my shoulders. 

  "Please," Dad said as he gave Jesse and small smile. "Call me Sam." 

  I grinned and Mom waved us off as she leaned back into Dad's arms and they started cuddling. I pretended to gag as I led Jesse into the kitchen and he pressed me back against the wall and set both of his hands on each side of me. I looked up into his sparkly blue yes and we both smiled at each other and I let out a giggle. 

  "I still love you, Tricia." 

  "No matter what?" I whispered. 

  "No matter what happens." he said as he gently gazed his lips over my cheek and pressed his forehead against mine. His breath caught in my lips and my heart froze from our closeness. 

  "Promise?"

  "I swear on my life." he said as his lips pressed against mine and I grinned, wrapping my arms around his neck and then wrapping my legs around his waist as he pushed my up the wall as his hands grabbed my ass. His lips moved to my neck and I moaned as I looked over his shoulder and out the window where I froze. 

  Paul was standing there, watching us and tears were coming out of his eyes.....




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