Can't Help but Love You *Paul Lahote Story*

Chapter Six

  - Paul -

I watched as Tricia pushed Jesse away from herself and she left the kitchen, probably heading to the front door, but if she wanted to follow me, she as going to have to catch me. 

I turned around and began running as I jumped into the air and quickly phased. I ran through the woods as fast as I could and I could hear Patricia chasing after me. I jumped over logs and tiny animals and dodged trees but she caught up to me eventually and when she did she jumped on to my back and bit my ear which made me yelp out in pain and I tried to fling her off my back but it didn't work to well. 

I phased back and quickly pulled my shorts on and then Tricia followed my lead and did the same as she quickly dressed too and I looked away. When I heard her sigh, I knew she was done and I turned back around to face her. She glared at me and I couldn't help but notice something because she was only wearing short short and a tank top so I could see her breasts and I tried my best not to stare so I had to look down again. 

"What is your problem?" she snapped as she put her hands on her hips and gave me a death glare. "Paul, I've know you since I was a little girl and there is nothing on this Earth that you can't tell me!" she said and I saw the tears prickle up in her eyes and I felt like shit for me being the one to make her cry. She tugged on a piece of her beautiful brown hair and she wiped her eyes. 

"Tricia, I can't talk to you about anything anymore. I don't know how you feel about me, and it's not fair for you to treat me like this!" I said as I felt my heart actually breaking into two. It was tearing me apart for having to do this to her but she needed to hear what I had to say. 

"What do you mean?"

"We kissed yesterday and now I don't know if you were playing games with me or your just cheating on me with Jesse to have fun, but I care for you Patricia and you need to realize that now before it's to late." 

She stared at me and I had no clue what she was thinking and I really didn't want to know right now, afraid of what it might be. She hit her bottom lip and crossed her arms over her chest as she stared at the ground and I yearned to just run over to her and hold her in my arms, but I kept a hold on myself. 

"Paul, I've finally made up with Jesse and I love him. You have no right at all, no right to tell me any on this. Your like my brother!" she said and I finally broke. I kicked the dirt and it flew in the air and hit her directly in the face and she growled at me as I gave her a shy smile, trying to lighten the mood but it didn't work. 

"Patricia, your like my sister, too and I have to protect you! Jesse's not a good person and you deserve way better than him!" 

"No Paul. He's amazing and sweet and a way better person than you'll ever be .... And he loves me." she whispered the last part and I can't even believe those words past her lips. 

Then I did the biggest mistake I've ever made and I blurted, "And you don't think I love you! Jesse's worthless and he's not better than me!" I said and then it was her turn to break and it did happen right then and right here. 

She growled at me as she threw her fists down on a log and it broke in half which made me just stare at her. She took in a deep breath and then let it come out of her nose as she punched a tree. 

"He raped you for Christ's Sakes!" I screamed at her and then I instantly regretted it. She turned towards me and just gaped at me with her mouth all the way opened and then a couple more tears came. I felt like shit for making her cry and I had no clue what to do. 

"Tricia -"

"Don't call me that! You don't deserve to call me anything but Patricia. Do you understand?" she said to me and she was to angry for me to argue with so I just nodded. 

"Patricia, I'm sorry if I offended you. I just didn't-" 

"Stop talking." she whispered and it was so low that I barely heard her. 

"What did you say?" 

"Just stop talking!" she screamed at me. "Can you hear me now?!" she glared at me as her eyes suddenly became a dark red and I took a slow step back. 

"Patricia? You okay?" I whispered as I bent down a bit a stuck my foot forward and reached out my hand, signaling that I wasn't going to hurt her, just like she had phased and was a werewolf right now. 

"What do you mean?" she asked, with a look of puzzlement on her face. 

"Your eyes just turned red ..." 

She stared at me and for a second I thought she was going to hit me but she just let out a shrill scream and ran off away from me and towards Sam's house and I just stated after the girl I loved like the stupid idiot I was. 

- Patricia - 

I ran threw the front door and let out a scream. Mom dropped a pan in the kitchen and Dad and Jesse quickly go out of their seats and all of them ran into the living room just as I began going up the stairs. I kicked the railing and it dented and went into the wall. 

"Patricia!" Mom screamed at me and I looked down at the three of them and rolled my eyes. 

"What do you what?" I snapped and Jesse gaped at me, Mom looked like she was about to snap at me, and Dad did snap. 

"Patricia! That is not how you talk to your mother and it is sure the hell not the way to take out your anger by breaking our things! Apologize!" Dad snapped and his face was deep red but he kept his cool in front of Jesse the best he could, at least he wasn't shaking. 

I sighed and looked at Mom. "Mom, I'm sorry but you sort of deserved it and Dad, take a chill pill." I said and then turned around and began walking up the stairs, leaving all three of them gaping at me now and I felt powerful for some reason and I smiled. I pushed open my door and slammed it shit behind me as I plopped down on my bed. Paul really did ruin my day and probably my whole life and I hated him so much right now. He was such a bitch! I groaned as I closed my eyes and then pressed my finger tips into my eyes but not to hard and let out a long, deep sigh. My day was ruined and horrible and now I'm going to be grounded until I die because of my "attitude". Yeah right! Blame Paul for my attitude!

I grabbed my pillow and hugged it to my chest as I curled up on my side and stared at my wall for what seemed forever and finally when there was a knock on the door, I didn't have to say anything before it opened. 

Jacob walked in and he gave me a slight smile but not even seeing him made me happier. It actually didn't affect me at all. He went to the other side of the bed and laid down next to me as he grabbed his own pillow and I turned to face him but I wouldn't look at him, I stared at my pillow that I still hugged to my chest. Jake played with a string hanging out of the end of his pillow and that's what I loved most about him. He waited for me to talk, he didn't push me into talking when I didn't want to and I was great full to have him as my best friend. 

Then it all just spilled out; how I made up with Jesse and then Paul crying. Then how Paul kissed me and I felt so bad for yelling at him but hen he made me cry and how my life was ruined and I've never yelled at my parents and how they probably hated me. 

Jacob laid next to me the whole time and didn't interrupt once. He listened and nodded, but that was all and I seriously wanted to kiss him for being such a good friend. I looked up at him and he as already looking at me and he pulled me to him and I finally broke. I let the years come as I cried into his chest and I didn't care that I was soaking Jake's shirt. He was my best friend and he was here for me, no matter what. I loved him with all my heart and I knew he loved me. 

"I love you, Jake." I said and he kissed my forehead as he moved my hair out of my face and then he wiped away my tears. 

"I love you too, Tricia." 

Jacob ended up leaving and I laid in my bed, staring at my ceiling as I thought of what I should do next. I sure as hell wasn't going downstairs right now and I wasn't going to call Jesse either ... Or Paul. I just ended up reading a Cosmo Magazine and then falling fast asleep ... Thinking of Paul.