✧ Songfics ✧

✧ Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) - Sheith Angst ✧

I was I was I was

Gonna say something that would solve all our problems

The hallway seemed a mile long. Why was Keith's heart beating so fast? He swore the sound echoed off the walls that seemed to be ever-narrowing. His knocks on Shiro's metal door sounded off like cannons blasting, each one leaving a louder ringing in his eardrums. The door opened without a sound, and there stood the object of Keith's affection. The apple of his eye. Unobtainable. Untouchable. Beautiful.

"S- Shiro," His voice was aquiver and his hands shook the same. A quickening heartbeat was like drums pounding in his ear. "I have something to tell you." Whatever fluidity Keith's sentence would have had, was interrupted by hiccups and stammering.

But then I got drunk and I forgot what I was talking aboutI forgot what I was talking about

"Keith, have you been drinking?" Warm words, like always. That's all Shiro was. Warm, warm, warm. Intoxicating. Enchanting. Beguiling."No," That was a lie, Shiro wasn't stupid, and Keith knew that full well. He was sure that the taller male could see through his bluff, as his breath reeked of alcohol, and his cheeks were painted with a red flush. "Shiro, I-" But could Keith even get the words out?"Keith, you--" That look was on his face again, that look that just screamed 'I feel sorry for you'. "--Don't look so good. What did you need to tell me?""Nevermind, it's not important."

There's nothing more cruel than to be loved by everybodyThere's nothing more cruel than to be loved by everybody but you, but you

The day after, the late-night encounter at Shiro's room became merely a hangover memory, one he tried to forget. No amount of mindbleaching could wipe it from his brain.

He knew he needed to confess. Just seeing Shiro everyday, talking, laughing, smiling, with everyone but him made his blood flow with jealously. Keith wanted Shiro to be his. He saw the way Shiro's 'friend', Matt, acted around him. It was so easy to tell that the brunet was all over the taller male. That should be Keith, or at least that's what he thought.

"Shiro!" Keith snapped, surprised by the power in his voice. Where had that come from? Before he could stop himself, he had shoved Matt away and was dragging his taller counterpart into the hallway.

"Keith, wha-"

"I- I..." Where were those words he wanted to say? Fuck it. Actions speak louder than words, right? Chapped lips crashed together. Keith pushed himself up on his tip toes, gripping Shiro's uniform collar to drag him down and steady himself. It lasted for all of three seconds of shocked silence. Three seconds for Shiro to have kissed back. Three seconds in which he did not.

"I love you."

"K- Keith.." What was that tone? Pitying? No, no, you're supposed to love me back! "I'm dating Matt. Y- You are like a little brother to me, we can't do this, this can't happen. I'm sorry."

If I can get my shit together

I'm gonna run away and never see any of you again