Complicated: A Karamel Story

Too much to let go

Dear Diary,

Alex have this thing to me for my birthday when I was 12. I never used it but now I feel obligated to. I never really imagined being a mother. Especially not a mother with a Daxamite. I yelled at him last night. I don't know what to do. I love him too much to loose him. I can't just say 'Hey! Remember when I yelled at you because you thought I was pregnant? Well, yeah. You were right, sorry!!' No. I am really freaked out. I don't know. Not one part. But I do know that I will love my child and him with all my heart.

-Kara

I didn't feel like going to the D.E.O. today, I knew that Alex, Mon-El, Maybe James would all be there. And Winn wouldn't. That's when I heard a knock on the door. I threw my diary under my pillow and walked to the door. Ready to apologise to Mon-El. I opened up the door. It was really him. I looked into his deep blue eyes wondering how to word this. "Hi!" I go in for a kiss on the lips but he turns his face for a cheek kiss. "Kiss me! What's wrong?" My smile faded. He could tell. "Last night you yelled at me for thinking you were pregnant. And I started thinking. If you can't see us having a child together and be happy about it, maybe we shouldn't be together. I don't know if it's because I'm Daxamite or-" "Mon-El, stop. I love you. I would love to have a child with you. It wasn't you last night. It was the fact of me messing up as a mother. When I was 13 I had to leave my mother. I was tramatized. I cried for the next year. I-" I cleared my throat. "I was so scared last night that if we did have a kid, what if something happened to he or she. I didnt consider your feeling last night. I never thought you would want a kid. And for all of that, I'm sorry." I reached up and kissed him. This time he didn't turn away. I had a feeling he never would ever again. As I kissed him. He breathed deeply and grabbed my face. I grabbed his too and then I pulled away. He looked at me and I grabbed something out if my pocket.

Mon-El-

She grabbed something from her pocket and held it up in front of her face. A plus. A PLUS!!!! I looked at her feeling my eyes tear up. I picked her up off the ground and kissed her. I carried her over to the couch and soon we were watching her new favorite show. It's about Alein investigations. She says if the case was real or not. It's quite hilarious really. When the episode ended I turned to her and pushed her up against the couch. Soon enough she was kissing back. She pulled away and ran to the bathroom, she started puking. Not just puking, puking kryptonite.