Zarya's. point of view
Trudging back to overwatch headquarters. Giant, never ending tears flood from my eyes. " she's gone.... I need to find her but I don't know where to look.... where ! Where are you y/n!" I shout into the sky . When I walk in I'm greeted by a pare of brown eyes that belong to mei. Smiling gently she hugs me tightly as I hold her close and cry," it's not fair I just want her ! " I sob onto her head. She hold some tightly and she looks up and into my eyes. " I love you... " she says and she stands on the tips of her toes and presses her soft lips agents mine. I don't pull away nor do I deepen it. "Oh no, oh no, what do I do I want y/n but I fear she is gone... Mei is all I have left that I can rely on.... She treats me good and she has been my support for years... I guess it couldn't hurt. " I think as I pick mei up and deepen the kiss and press her body agents the wall and she moans into the kiss while I do so. " All I think about is y/n I don't think I can keep this up... I don't want to break her heart... Maybe this will help me get over she is gone... " I hear the sound of tracer as she blinks down the hall but I don't care. She gasps and goes red while blinking away laughing, " get a room you two! " her British accent exposes through the halls. I carry mei to her room and she opens the door and slowly we remove each piece of clothing. Pushing away all thoughts of y/n and focused just on mei. Her finger trails down and push agents my spot and they trail down and slip inside me and push agents my spot. I instantly moan but then I push her off and gather my cloths. I looks at their exposed figure on the bed, i shake my head and instantly open the door slam it shut and take off. Running down the hall d.va yells and covers her eyes ," Zarya get cloths on geez!" I run into my room and hide. I think about it, " it's mean to loose hope on y/n. I don't get the same feeling as I do when I think about y/n like that it doing that. It's not right, even though we aren't.... Dating... I still think it's cheating.... I tried to deny my feelings. I'll keep trying until I know she is actually still.... Here. " sobbing as i continue to think I drift off into a deep sleep.