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1. The Netflix Guru Has Struck Again

Alex grabbed her by the upper arm as she was turning around to leave. He couldn't believe he had hurt her again. Not her, he thought. Not the girl he liked. Not the girl that had stood by him when not even his own mother would.

Ilana turned to face Alex, and when she did, Alex's heart broke all over again. Ilana's skin glistened in the pale moonlight which caught Alex by surprise. He had never seen anything more magnificent than her. Even with her face looking tormented, full of sadness and hatred, Alex wanted to kiss Ilana. He wanted to brush away the the line of tears which stained her cheeks. Alex had to resist the urge to smooth over the creased lines in her forehead. He wanted to tell Ilana that he had never felt close to another person until he met her. Heck! He didn't even know he could feel until he met her. But now Alex  felt it all, remorse, desire, sadness, but most of all anger. Anger towards himself. And in that moment, caught up in the agony of seeing Ilana suffer by his doing, he choked up. He wanted to reassure Ilana, but as much as he willed the words to leave his lips, he could not.

"Leave me alone," Ilana cried as she tried to wiggle her arm out of Alex's grip. "I don't want to see you again." Ilana tried to make her voice sound venomous, but Alex was a perceptual young man, he caught the tinge of sadness in her voice. No matter how indifferent Ilana wanted to seem, Alex knew he had hurt her.

"Stop!" Alex pleaded as his eyes started to water, "I didn't sleep with her, okay. I'm sorry."

"I am not stupid," Ilana grinded her teeth. Her voice was like the quiet before the storm: low and slow. Alex would have preferred to have Ilana yell at him, but this silence was frightening. "Your breath reeks of alcohol, and I saw you coming out of the room with her."

Alex had  kissed Helen , or rather Helen had kissed him, but he didn't sleep with her. Still, he was at fault, he should have pushed Helen back. What was he thinking? Why didn't he he react sooner? But of course, Alex was asking questions that he already knew the answer to, he was drunk. Ilana and him had just gotten into that huge fight, he just wanted to feel less pain and fear, so he drank.

"I only kissed her, I didn't sleep with her," Alex defended himself, "you have to believe me. I've changed. I'm not the guy I used to be."

"How can you say that when you just kissed another girl," Ilana cried. At this point Ilana had stopped trying to look stoic, and her face scrunched up once again. "I knew you couldn't change."

Ilana finally broke loose out of Alex's grip, and that's when she said the most horrible thing Alex had ever heard.

She said, "I think we should break up."

Had Alex heard her right? Did she really want to break up after everything they've been through? No, he couldn't believe his ears, which is why he asked a simple, "what"?

"I said, I think we should break up," Ilana repeated herself as she looked down at the ground beneath her.

"No," Alex face hardened as he lifted her head by placing his hand under her chin until he was looking directly into her eyes, "don't leave me."

"Then give me one good reason to stay," Ilana got hopeful again, maybe if Alex finally told her what Ilana wanted him to say, she could find it in her heart to forgive him. Forgive him for kissing her, of all people. Had Alex kissed any girl other than Helen, maybe Ilana woudnt've felt as betrayed as she did right now.

But Alex only looked at her, he didn't say anything. He couldn't say those three little words that he knew could make Ilana stay. He was too afraid that what happened with his dad would happen with Ilana too. Too afraid that she wouldn't reciprocate his feelings. But most of all, too afraid of Ilana reciprocating, and making her life miserable.