i cannot sleep
i cannot sleep
i need to sleep
go to sleep
why can't i sleep?
i close my eyes and see every horrific mistake and every word that has left my lips and every glance and every sigh and then i try to tell myself i will be better tomorrow but oh I have so many things to do tomorrow what if I mess up i need to sleep so i am not tired tomorrow and yet i just cannot sleep
and so isimply stare into nothingness, thoughts like a loud twister that cannot be avoided no matter how long i try
and by the time i have waited for it to pass, i hear the birds sing their alarms to signal the beginning of a new day
and there are bags under my eyes deep enough to carry stars inside
for that's how i feel when i close my eyes because everything is heavier
i'm so fucking tired.
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efflorescence
Poetry- where my withering thoughts bloom [TW] don't judge me most of these are very old
