Walking down on the street with my hood.
While digging the deepest thought I could
Seeking answer so I'll understood
Why some people are naive and rude
This path I choose is an endless way
For most person don't want to stay
Where loneliness always win and lead
Until your heart die and let you bleed
Feeling I felt quite easy to hide
Using blank expression as a guide
Find emotions, just what I decide
But already lost it and let it died
This sadness took my life many times
Also forget the fun and just mime
Hope someone get the message on time
And that someone will say I'm not fine
It's hard to think, that someone I want
Is the one I won't have cause I can't
It's funny how things we need the most
Are the things we can easily lost
That's why I stay here in this place
Fight all the darkness alone
Saying to myself time should not waste
I can pass this and get out of this room
But this world Im in is hard to read
Now giving comfort that's what I need
Give off a protection as I hid
Humming a lullaby just like I'm a kid
Yet I know it's not reality
An act to hide an identity
To give pain and start rivalry
What hurt most is, it's a treachery.
This feeling is now overflowing
Asking how can I stop hiding
How can I show off I have something
If they won't also stop hurting?
Right now there is war inside my brain
Should I fake my emotion again?
I think there's no rainbow without rain
I smile even though im in pain.
Showing Im miserable and hurt
Only make them satiate their hearts
If they see me useless and tortured
It will continually make them feel good.
So I have to hide all emotions
And build a wall as my protection
I'll always wear a blank expression
And cope up in this situation
Im glad no one peak under my hoody
Cause if they look they'll see misery,
They'll see a never ending agony
They will see the darkness inside me.
