Alternate ending of allegiant

Chapter 57

Chapter 57-TOBIAS

Doctors come running in and drag me out of her room.
"I tried to stop you... to tell you," he says calmly.
"She doesn't remember me, does she? She never will..." I say. My face is getting hot, my eyes are burning. I can feel my heart dropping.
Breaking.
"We've kept her sedated because of her wounds.We wouldn't know anything about her memory until she woke up.When we got to her she was very weak... not only did she fight off the death serum, which is a miracle in itself, she was shot pretty severely in the head, it was all just too much. I'm so-"
"Sorry?" I say coldly. I turn and walk out.
After all we have been through, she's alive. She's mine to have again. But she's gone. She's not Tris. She's not the same. She never will be.
I don't know if I can take this anymore. I've always been worried I'd lose her to death.This is much worse. It sounds selfish, but I'd almost rather her be dead. Just a memory for me to have forever.
Now she'll be around, alive. I'll know she's here, so close to me, but I can never have her. I'll always love her. Even the Tris who she becomes without her memories.
But will she love me?