One shots

5

Trigger warning: Car accident, death

Did you know that when you're drowning you don't actually take a breath until you're about to black out. It's called voluntary apnea. It's almost no matter how much you want to die, the will to live is so strong that your body doesn't take in any water until it shuts off. My eyes sting with salt water as my grip on the steering wheel loosens until I can no longer feel the touch of the leather. I close my eyes and allow the freezing water to engaulf my numbing body. How did it all go wrong.

How did my life go wrong.

My eyes flutter open, the burn from the salt water quickly inflicting them. I feel the lids of my two grey irises slamming closed on instinct. Happy memories display themselves in front of me. A sort of memorial almost.

My seventh birthday, I was dressed as a fairy, everyone else was running around in their costumes. We were having fun. So much fun. Happy childish fun.

My thirteenth birthday, we were at the pool, water was splashing everywhere, we were all laughing, playing truth or dare in our towels after wards, having my first kiss. Taking my first sip of coffee. My first boyfriend. My first love. My first heartbreak.

Seventeen, getting my license. Getting my car. Finding love again. Life was good, so good.

My mind rests shortly. I try to open my eyes again, to no avail as I feel my body loosen from it's once tense state. We all have our times to leave the earth, and this is mine.