H. E. R. S. E. L. F

CHAPTER 1

To the girl who wants to read something new
To the girl at war with herself
To the girl who needs to be reminded of who she is
To the girl who has forgotten to fight for herself
To the girl who has misplace her joy
To the girl who has wrestling with the pain of her past
To the girl who has been feeling a little lost
To the girl who want a justice as a REVENGE
To the girl who want a FORGIVENESS.

And this is ME, MYSELF, and I.

ALEX P.O.V
      I am Alex Santiago, 17 years of age. The one and only daughter of Santiago, one of the owners of the riches company here in Philippines. I can get all I wanted to have EXCEPT to my REVANGE. Oppsss! Sorry EXCEPT to the man I am dreaming of! The son of the owner of our school, no other than “MR. ALEXANDER GONZALEZ”    Kyahhhh. We are really meant to be! And it is obvious to our name blehhhh. I was dreaming to be with him for him and I promise to myself, to the universe and to everyone. Alexander will be MinE!
    While having a revenge to each of them my life will become miserable .
“Is this my karma ?”
“How can I Fix all of this ?”
“Yaya, yaya!”

    It’s 7 o’clock in the morning and I am getting late to my first class just because of my nanny. She is  so logy and she always ruin my day. Grrrrrr!
“Yaya this is not I want to wear. Never mind! I’ll be the one to take it.” I shout to her face and I think my mom heard my voice; she was my worst villain when it comes to nanny.

    “What is that noise Alex? If you can do with you own, why don’t you take the initiative? Don’t always relay to our nanny.”               
   
  And I was like done to her speech, I have memorized all her lines as every day, I heard her sermons. That’s how we described our mother’s; they are like guns wherein the unlimited bullet is in their mouth. Before I’m getting late, I just walk-out and say

“Goodbye mom I love you, take care!”
“Goodbye mom, I love you”
“Goodbye mom, I love you “
“Goodbye mom, I love you “
        
Those continual voices heard ears, and keep flying all over my face, unlimited screams running in my mind. And I can’t control the sounds. Every time as every time.

GONZALEZ UNIVERSITY SCHOOL

 
   This is the beginning in everything . Everyone sees who I am but not my    identity.
     
As I walking in the hallway, I heard a screams of different voices. So, I decided to watch them behind the narrow green leaves. The only eyes of mine is  the one  who sees the reality.
“He is so gwapo! “ Says the one girl who insults the innocent one named Patricia.

“My dream boy, I hope your be mine” says the one who broke  the one’s heart named Maggie.

“Kyahhhh. Tall, dark, and handsome!” says the one who steeled the answers from innocent one and the  old friend gay who left someone just for his real identity named Carla and he was the old Karl.

    Everyone was dreaming for him. Oh, I forgot I have been studying college here taking up a Bachelor of Secondary Education as a second year student and I am a Student Governor of this department.
  
Going back, maybe all of you are wondering if why I become secretly crazy in this man. It is so obvious to all the girls, boys, gays, and lesbian who was impressed to him. And I am proudly say that I am secretly crazy with him. Yes! You heard that SECRETLY CRAZY WITH HIM?  Do you want to know how?
  
Sometimes, I always left different love letters to his locker and its easy for me to do that because beside to his locker is mine. I also asked someone to make me a copy of those keys of him. Every break time I was putting different snacks at his armchair. And those are not just I have done with him. There is more and many more.
     While I am in the middle of my footing there is someone shouting from afar.

“Bessssss! Bessssss! “

ANDY’S P.O.V

     “Besssss! Bessssssss !

  I shout twice from afar, when I sight my one and only best friend. Alex is deaf sometimes especially when she is dreaming and thinking such things. Anyway I know that all of you are wondering if how and why we are become best friends.

“Ugly!”
“Pathetic “
“ Loser “

     Those are some words that I heard to all of my classmates. And a kind of Alex was one person who saved my life in that demoniac situation.

  “ Hey! What are you doing with her ?! They are have courage to speak those, ha ?! Are all of you are perfect for having a right to say those such things? Get out and don’t you ever bother her!” And that is the beginning of our friendship.

     As this friendship start it is of knowing well. She is gentle in her out but you became her enemy the devil inside her body was appearing. Alex hates people who are bullying others she already one of the victim of those. Maybe that’s why she’s like that, thirsty in making and in having her own revenge. But upon knowing her I don’t know if she is really my friend that I was met before.

    While I was dreaming from the past and I was floating in the air in my daydreaming someone pulled my hair.

“ Hey, what are you thinking about ?’ Alex starting to irritated to me.

  
“ I’m just imagining my one and only crush “ I answered to her.

“ Huh? She doesn’t love you and it will never happen.” While saying that her stomach are hardly laughing in the air.

  “Tssk.! Stop insulting me! Let’s go to our first class. We’re gonna be late.“ I answered to stop him.
   
Now we are both running and the time in my wrist watch was already 7:30am. We are almost stumbled in our way and were getting bumpy to each person that comes from us. Just to come up to Mrs. Garcia’ class. We have not yet in the large classroom but we already heard her sermons and her voices are still huge and husky like a man.
  
“ Late again the two of you ?” And that is the her first  sermon, I just didn’t hear any pleasant greetings from her.
 
“Sorry Ma’am.” That is the only thing we answered.

When Mrs. Garcia is in the half of her discussion Alex excused herself and go out. “Where can she go ? “ I just asking myself and after 10minutes someone is entering in the door of the room. Every girl is shouting and blushing.