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my life

they believed me and My life went on. I was in with grade when he started making inappropriate comments.from how I have a big butt to how I'm a slut.(even though I never had a boyfriend until seventh grade.)

My mom tried to laugh it off and I did too.I was so scared.  I couldn't be alone with him in fear I would be hurt again. he kept abusing me and My mom said she didn't know. I started to self harm. everyone noticed yet no one ever tried to help. I didn't care though I didn't want help.I kept going deep and would walk out with a short sleeve shirt and shorts so you could see them freshly made. no one said anything.I was bullied from k5 on. everyone called me a freak because I was different.I wrote songs and poems about someone saving me.I drew and listened to music all day. I would be hit.then cut so he wouldn't be the last one to hurt me. this continued from 2009-2014 five years of abuse. and BULLIES and haters.

in sixth grade I lost all of My friends,and was being bullied alot. people actually threw holy water at me.telling me I was the devil.the teachers didn't say anything. I faked a smile everyday. My teachers and everyone else belived me. I never showed any skin in fear of people finding that out. I had met a girl named Elise (not her name) who told me she self harmed (she didn't) she got me close to her then broke me. she told me If I didn't send nudes to her boyfriend she would kill herself. I was niave and did it trying to save her life. she didn't need saving...... she calked me a slut and My mom found out And hated me. even more.

I got a boyfriend and he tried to go to fast so I dumped him. I didn't like it and people looked at me like a freak again.I was bullied and shit.  I was still being abused and people wrote me hate letters telling me to kill myself. I tried. many many times. pills,a knife,a blade, nothing worked.

I got the guts to tell My mom about the abuse. after he tried to choke her. she told me I was lying. she told him and he hit me. whenever My mom left for work he hit me. she worked everyday. all night and part of the day. it was horrible. I showed her the bruises and she told me to suck it up for her marriage and I was a slut for taken the attention from her. that I was trying to steal her man. he hit her again this year and she divorced him. she told me it was My fault and that I was a slut. she called me fat and beat me. I cut deeper and deeper. I would wake up in puddles of blood. I still don't know how I survived.  I went to school holy even with bullies and cuts. when I thought it was great and I made friends. I told them about My past and there was a look in one of the guys eyes that flamed. he was really cute. he liked me or said he did. I was falling for him.  I told him everything. he said he understanded he lied......