vertigo ; eden/jonathan ng fanfiction

four.

QUICK AN BEFORE IT STARTS SO THAT IT MAKES SENSE: THIS CHAPTER IS BASICALLY A CHAPTER OF ALL OF ARIA'S DREAMS THROUGHOUT THE THREE YEARS THAY JON WENT AWAY. I KNOW IT SOUNDS STUPID NOW BUT ITS GOING TO MAKE SENSE IN THE FUTURE. ANYWAYS, READ ON AND ENJOY XO

Aria's POV

The girls and I decided to have a girls night out yesterday and got absolutely smashed. Thankfully, Mikey used his twin senses and decided to check on Megan. When he saw how wasted we were, he decided to drive us back to my place. Since my parents aren't usually home and are too busy flying around for their meetings, I didnt care if we went home drunk. Mikey left as soon as the three of us were asleep.

The three of us woke up with aching heads and now we decided to go out for breakfast since the maids were off of their duty and none of us felt like cooking.

"What's wrong?" Megan asks. "You always seem a little off after a night of drinking."

"I don't know what's happening." I confess. Lately I've been having weird dreams of just waking up in the middle of the night and calling Jon. I didn't want to admit that I was dreaming of another guy, especially now that I've been dating Scott but I just need to talk to someone about it.

Scott was this guy I met in sophomore year. I was usually doing well in classes until I got a little bit too distracted. He noticed and helped me basically pass my classes with higher grades. He's one of those football players with a golden heart and a genius mind, he was practically the school's golden boy. When we met in a party once, something between us just happened and now we've been dating for over a year now. When I first introduced him to the gang, it was quite awkward but we all got together eventually and now he's a part of us. There would be days where he'd hang out with us and there would be days where I would hang out with his group of friends but we found a balance.

"Okay, can you guys keep this a secret?" I ask although I already know they would. They nod and listen to me intently.

"I'm having these weird dreams where I've been waking up in the middle of the night and straight up just start calling Jon and have a conversation with him. Whenever I come home drunk, I just ring him up and we talk about the things that just makes me sad. We always talk about how much I'm hurting and all that." I explained. "I know it sounds stupid. I'm basically dreaming of another guy while I'm already dating Scott. I don't know what to make out of it."

"It's okay if you still miss him, Aria. We all still do." Kayla says, rubbing my back to comfort me.

"Do you remember any specific conversations?" Megan asks.

"The weird thing is, I've remembered almost every single one of them." I confess.

***
Flashback starts.

I get up and start ringing the person who I've been missing the most. After a few rings, he picks up.

Jon: I thought you said not to call you.
Aria: I know.
Jon: Why are you calling? Are you okay?
Aria: If I'm being honest, no I'm not.
Jon: That's okay, I didn't expect you to be.
Aria: Why wasn't I enough for you to stay, Jon?
Jon: You were. You're worth so much more to me than a reason to stay. You were the reason why I wanted to leave.
Aria: You said I'd understand it in the future. Its been months and I still don't get why you left for me.
Jon: You'll understand soon, I promise.

—end of call—

***

After Scott dropped me off and tucked me in safely, I whip out my phone and start punching in numbers. Not even after the first ring, Jon picks up. As if he was waiting for my call all this time.

Aria: I got wasted today again. I kept drinking multiple rounds of tequila in hopes that you'd come out of the blue and stop me. You didn't.
Jon: You have to stop drinking. Its gonna kill you one day.
Aria: You always hated it when I drank too much.
Jon: I still hate it.
Aria: I'm sorry. I thought it would bring you back.
Jon: Why don't you ever call me when you're sober?
Aria: I find comfort in just talking to you in my drunk dreams. This way, I get to talk to you but not really.
Jon: Do you miss me?
Aria: Yeah.
Jon: Why don't you ever say it?
Aria: Because I'm not supposed to.
Jon: Why not?
Aria: Because it feels like I'm cheating on my boyfriend.
Jon: What do you mean?
Aria: I'm in a relationship with someone. Have been for the past few weeks.
Jon: I'm happy for you.
Aria: I'm happy for you too. I know it doesn't seem like it, it's weird.
Jon: I know you are.

—end of call—

***

Last time I had another dream, it was when he released Vertigo. I could relate to a lot of songs from the album and felt like he was trying to send me a message using pieces of the songs. It was an emotional night, I had a lot of weight in my chest so I called Jon again and he picked up in a matter of seconds.

Aria: Stop picking up the phone.
Jon: I can't help it, you keep calling me.
Aria: I want you to forget about me.
Jon: If I could forget you, you know I would. I cant help myself from feeling that this is all wasted on me.
Aria: I used to get drunk a lot just so I could talk to you.
Jon: You can always talk to me when you're sober.
Aria: I can't. Anyways, this is going to be the last time. I'm gonna stop.
Jon: I miss you.
Aria: Me too.
Jon: I love you.
Aria: Me too.
Jon: Then why are you doing this? Why don't you want to talk to me?
Aria: That's the point, Jon. I love you.

—end of call—

"That's deep, man" Kayla says after I tell her and Megan the three dreams. "Did you ever tell Scott about it?"

I shake my head, "No. I'm too scared to. I love Scott, I really do. But what if this destroys our relationship?"

"I'm not gonna advise you to do anything you don't want to do but you have to tell him. We know you've always had feelings for Jon but we don't know if you're over it or not." Megan says.

"Alright," I say. "I'll think about it."

"Okay, we'll get going now. Don't forget, we're having brunch together with the boys at the diner. Be there by ten, yeah?" Kayla says, reminding me about the group hangout session tomorrow.

"For sure." I say before they get out the house.

Alex said he had some special announcement for the group. I was wondering if it was some sort of plan for our summer road trip. Since its basically the last road trip we're doing. Everyone's in their second to the last year in college, this is basically our last summer together before we finish college and go out separate ways to our future jobs.

Since its going to be our last trip, we decided to take it up a notch. We weren't only going to go around America like last time but also to some European and Asian countries. We all saved up more money and asked our parents for help. Mine and Kayla's parents helped us with the hotels while the plane tickets were taken care of by Alex and the twins. All our savings would go to the itinerary and food.

It all sounds fun and really cool but a little part of me just hoped Jon would come.

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Another short chapter but yall are gonna have to wait for the next one aha.

If you have any questions regarding the plot, just leave a comment so I can explain and fix it. Xoxo