Connor Murphy x !Depressed¡ Reader

Chapter Two: Waving Through a Window

As I stepped on school grounds I felt an unwanted surge of nervousness flush over me, the sounds of rejection and resentment were heard scattering through the halls, no one knew I existed, my cast kept getting itchy and that wasn't helping with anything! I was just getting more and more scared as it went. I needed to get to class..
"I've learned to slam on the break, before I even turn the key-"
I sat on the ground and stood up, this motion, I wouldn't dare to do in real life.
"Before I make the mistake"
I turned around and walked off
"Before I lead with the worst of me, give them no reason to stare.."
I looked around at my surroundings nervously, avoiding all human interaction around me.
"No slippin' up if you slip away, so I got nothing to share"
I pinned my back up against the door I rather violently closed behind me
"No I got nothin' to say~"
I had the option to go out and talk to people, but instead I turned away and walked off
"Step out, Step out of the sun if you keep gettin' burned"
I countinued down the hall
"Step out, Step out of the sun because you've learned, because you've learned"
I looked out a window
"On the outside always lookin' in-"
In my head I saw myself from the point of view of someone else on the other side
"Will I ever be more than I've always been?"
I raised my uncasted arm up and placed my hand on the glass and tapped my finger to the beat in my head
" 'Cause I'm tap-tap-tappin' on the glass.."
I rested my hand on the window and saw myself from the different POV again
"Waving Through a Window. I try to speak but nobody can hear so I wait around for an answer to appear.."
I balled my hand into a fist and kept it on the window
"While I'm watch-watch-watchin' people pass. I'm Waving Through a Window Oh~"
I let my arm slide down and hit the window cill
"Can anybody see? Is anybody waving-"
I turned away from the window and walked off
"Back at me?"
I was suddenly in my head again
"We start with stars in our eyes, we start believing that we belong~"
I saw my family there, my mother, father, and I all happy.
"But every sun doesn't rise"
I saw me and my mother, no father, just gone.
"And no one tells you where you went wrong!"
I found my self outside near a tree.
"Step out, Step out of the sun if you keep gettin' burned"
I walked into the shade of the tree
"Step out, Step out of the sun because you've learned, because you've learned!"
I found myself sitting atop one of the branches
"On the outside always lookin' in. Will I ever be more than I've always been? Cause I'm tap-tap-tappin' on the glass"
I tapped my finger to the beat on the tree branch, then lifted my arm as if I were waving
"I'm Waving Through a Window! I try to speak but nobody can hear so I wait around for an answer to appear while I'm watch-watch-watchin' people pass. Waving Through a Window! Can anybody see? Is anybody waving?"
I closed my eyes and when I opened them I found myself in a dark reality where I had jumped off the tree branch, I was re imagining when I broke my arm
"When your falling in a forest, and there's nobody around do you ever real crash or even make a sound? When your falling in a forest, and there's nobody around do you ever real crash or even make a sound?"
I found myself falling endlessly.
"When your falling in a forest, and there's nobody around do you ever really crash or even make a sound?!"
I closed my eyes tighter.
"When your falling in a forest, and there's nobody around do you ever really crash or even make a sound?!"
I hit the ground, but simply broke through it and kept falling.
"Did I even make a sound? Did I even make a sound? It's like I never made a sound! Did I ever make a sound...?"
I hit the ground but it didn't hurt, I stood up
"On the outside always lookin' in will I, ever be more than I've always been? Cause I'm tap-tap-tappin' I'm the glass"
People on the other sides of the glass stood there, backs facing me..
"Waving Through a Window!! I try to speak but nobody can hear so I wait around for an answer to appear"
I ran with no end past every window, creating inner panic
"While I'm watch-watch-watchin' people pass, I'm Waving Through a Window!"
I looked down as all the people and glass faded into nothing
"Can anybody see? Is anybody waving back at me?"
I yelled out, my eyes felt tired and restless.
"Is anybody waving?! Waving? Waving? Whoa-oh Whoa-oh~"
I awoke back to reality to find that the school day had ended and I was in my head all day.
Well I guess the day wasn't as bad as I expected it to be.. probably cause I paid no attention to anything and didn't have to say anything at all.. Hope everyday at school turns out like this.. though probably not because I'm a nervous wreck and this wasn't on purpose and if I try to do it again I'll probably mess it up and get really nervous people will think I'm weird or actually pay attention to me and bully me or something, I'm just gonna go home and stop with this needless thinking and get on the bus.. or should I walk.. if I walk I'll smell- I hate making decisions...

And with that (Y/N) got into the bus, heading back home to prepare for yet another day of school tomorrow.

A/N
WWOOOH! I HIT MY 1000 WORD GOAL! That goal is set for every non-filler chapter. I'm so happy I got to a thousand words~ anyway I'm tired now and since these chapters are pre written imma get some sleep now to start working on the next few chapters tomorrow, here's a question, what's your guys favorite food? I wanna get to know y'all! Anyway have a good Day/Night. Comment your answers below! Buh bye!! Oof forgot to mention this chapter update is dedicated to @alice-05