2 a.m. sadness

buried feelings

i don't like you ,
but why do you make me feel hurt
it's not even personal
but you're my childhood crush
so it's sad to watch you
fall in love with your ex lover
over and over again ,
my heart aches hearing your name
and its slowly tearing me alive

you gave her a chocolate
shaped of a perfectly heart
and you talk about her like
she's some kind of art
pieces and pieces of me
started to lose it self,
and for the first time ,
im scared of losing myself
in the process .

i love you ,
doesn't make any sense
i like you ,
doesn't define who we are
so i think we really are just
some kind of friendly strangers .

but how could i ever think that
you would like me back?
and how could i ever think that
everything was meant to be ?

i'm tired of chasing you ,
a blurry vision and uncleared image
maybe im just a wannabe,
maybe i'm just a dreamer
with no hope in my head .
but it's hopeless ,
so let's just called a shot shall we ?

--
[ inspired by a movie ]