2 a.m. sadness

im happy for you, so im saying goodbye

soon ,
you're gonna forget about me
you're gonna forget all the memories we made
we'll talk ,
less and less everyday
while you're searching for a person to make new memories and adventures
i will just stand there in the distance ,
looking at you ,
and be happy for you

im happy for you
i really do
but i'm not quite sure
what my happiness really meant ,
is it "im not ready to lose you yet"
or
is it "i'm willing to let you go "

once,
you were my source of happiness and all the laughter

now ,
you're all the source of the many,many tears i cried out in all the countless sleeps

thank you for all the time i got to spend with you

but now ,
if you're gonna look for me ,
you will realize
i'm nowhere to be found
that i'm gone

i really hope you're happy in the future
i wish you nothing but the best

i'm happy for you ,
so im saying
goodbye.