it been a while since i wrote an entry in this diary,
a lot has happened and i hate to say it, but i've changed.
i'm not the girl i was in october when i wrote my last entry.
that girl didn't know heart break like this one sitting in front of her computer writing this entry does.
i let it happen again, i trusted someone i shouldn't have and i found out they wasted 4 months of my life and my time.
that's 121 days that was spent giving someone who didn't deserve it, my love.
and as i write this i am laughing at myself because the girl i was in october believed in love, hoped for love.
this one sitting here today, doesn't want a damn thing to do with it.
a lot of people in my life wanna know why i have been so distant and the answer i give them is simple.
my heart hurts, i'm tired and worn down and have nothing to fight for anymore, which is sad because i used to be full of hope.
but hence the word used.
a lot can change in such a short amount of time, its crazy.
- kels
