Have you ever experienced a bone chilling pain. Kasi ako oo.
I'm Lara and I'll tell you a secret.
Hindi ko alam if I'm suffering in depression or what, pero I'm always like this when those scars resurfaced.
Way back in my third year college. Second take ko ng isang subject sa course ko. Alam ko naman na hindi ako matalino tulad ng iba. I'm just an average girl. Hindi ko ini expect na ito ang simula ng unti unti kong paglimot kung sino talaga ako.
I FAIL my second take in a particular subject at hindi ko inaasahan yun. I tell my parents about my failing grade. Alam ko magagalit sila but I still hope that mapapatawad nila ako.
I was shocked when my mother slap me hard, may kasamang sabunot sa buhok, masasakit na salita and cursing me like I did a horrible crime. I was crying so hard and take it all. I didn't say anything but the words that my mother said it's all embedded to me. Nakatatak sa puso at isip ko lahat. It's hunting for week's. I also stopped going to school for one semester. There was a time that I tried to kill my self. Luckily my friends are there for me.
Up until now, I feel the pain. Not physically but emotionally and mentally. I'm now back to school to finish my course. And still in pain but trying to hold my self together. Though there are times that I feel that bone chilling pain again and the memories are resurfacing.
This is my scar. A scar that cannot be erased.
