Song of Ice and Fire

Chapter Thirty-Two

"Hello." I whisper even though, there is no one else to hear me. The chambers are cold, ruined and dark. No one has been here for ages. Years, maybe.

"Hello." I whisper again. Every time I whisper that pain hits my heart and clenches it. "I miss you." I whisper again into nothingness. Tears are streaming down my cheek slowly and painfully.

"I miss you." I whisper one more time, bearing with pain inside my chest.

"B-Bianca?" His voice is low, full of love and care. I smile at him, even though I might be regretting kissing him, I missed him.

"Sorry." I whisper and take a step away from Theon. "It was wrong." I whisper again and look down at my feet. "I shouldn't have done that." I am about to turn around and run, when he catches my hand and forces me to look at him.

"It's okay." He whispers and leans closer. "You have done nothing wrong." He whispers again against my lips. "I missed you." He mumbles before crushing his lips against mine.

***

I don't know how long we have been like that. But I know one thing. Time has stopped existing for me the minute his lips touched mine. I have lost the sense of feeling as soon as I felt his touch, and kiss.

"Theon..." I whisper his name in hopes to call myself back to senses. I... I know it's wrong to kiss him like that... but I can't help myself. My whole body is aching when I am away from him.

"Bianca." He whispers back and plants a soft kiss on my cheek. Tears are already building up in my eyes, but I don't let them fall. I won't let them fall.

I take a step back, my body is trembling and I can't even look in his eyes. We aren't together anymore and... being with him like that... it feels wrong.

I turn back and start running away from him and the feelings he is giving me. I can hear his cries and footsteps, but I am faster. Faster than the wind outside. And I run.

***

"Princess?" Jaime asks me in confused voice and looks at my messy hair, flushed cheeks and watered eyes. "What happened?" He tries to stand up, but the chains bring him down.

"I can't do this anymore." I whisper with tears sliding down my face. I sit next to him, letting my sorrow be seen. He looks at me confused and surprised. Never have I ever showed someone my tears, my weakness. And here I am, sitting next to my enemy and crying like a small child.

"What happened?" He asks me again and with another sob, I start telling. I tell him everything. The dialogue with Sansa, conversation with Catelyn and... Theon. I tell him about the sensations and the pain my own mother set me on.

"I... I can't do this..." I whisper again. I cast my eyes down on the marble floor. "It's just... too much." I whisper again and sigh.

"Hey, it's okay." He starts whispering in soothing voice and smiles at me. "Everything is going to be okay..." he tells me again, but I doubt that he, himself believes in it. "You should talk to Kraken... he deserves a second chance..." Jaime whispers in wise voice and I smile at him, nodding my head.

"What about... Catelyn?" I ask him again. She is my greater problem... she is the reason, I was sent beyond the Wall... she is the reason, why I am like this.

"Tell me everything..." Jaime pleads to me. "Tell me the truth about you and why you were beyond the Wall."

I bite my lower lip. I sigh and look away from him. But he indeed deserves the truth. He deserves to know what happened to me while I still was little four years old girl.

"I...are you sure you want to know?" I ask again and he nods. With another sigh i start telling the story of my life. "As you know I am the only daughter of Lord Brandon Stark. I am the true heir and... this caused problems the second Robb was born." I whisper again and fight the urges to cry. "Thus, my mother, Catelyn thought of a plan to get rid of me." I whisper again, my lips quivering. "She sent me beyond the Wall. She pushed me away and soon I found myself, freezing in the white snow." Jaime looks at me horrified. His eyes are never leaving my face and I can see shock inside of them. "I don't know how true it is, but people say she has sent someone the very next day to save me... but I was already gone." I whisper again. I don't want to remember everything, but I know that I have no other choice.

"Are you okay?" He asks me out of nowhere and I nod, choosing to continue story telling.

"I managed to survive without anyone helping me. I was freezing, but at the same time coldness was keeping me alive." I mumble remembering the coldest Winter of my life. "I managed to live and after some time... I came across the tribe, that adopted me." I whisper and bite my lower lip. "I was weak. I cried and cried and... I missed my family..." I wipe my tears away. "After some time... they taught me how to be strong and... how to fight. Soon, I was the best fighter of the whole tribe and... I learnt to move on." I smile at the memories in my head. "And then you know the rest." I whisper and sigh. "After I managed to return... I thought that things would be different. At first it was... but Catelyn couldn't love me. She couldn't force herself to love me, her own child."

"Hey, it's okay." He starts patting my shoulder and I smile at him. But the story isn't yet over.

"She and Ned... well, mostly Ned tried to give me the normal family, but it was already too late. I grew up someone she hated. And she couldn't change me." I smile and shake my head. "Ned was always against me being sent beyond the Wall... but he couldn't do anything... then... when I returned he saw it as a chance to make it up... and we tried... but I was cold towards him." I sigh and blink my tears away. "He really was a good uncle to me."

I finish my story telling and look down at my hands. I am scared to even look at Jaime. I don't know why I told him the story of my life, but I know one thing for sure. It helped me.

"Don't worry." He whispers suddenly and hugs me as tight as possible. "You will always have me and my family as your own." He whispers and I can feel his tears sliding on my shoulders. "If they don't want you, we want you." He whispers again and kisses me softly on my forehead. "We will never leave you, Princess. So, know one thing... if Starks are to betray you, Lannisters will never leave you."