Never an Optimist

Introduction

My thoughts were consumed with worry as I lay on my bed, hugging my pillow to my chest. I had gotten a text from Liam earlier saying he wanted to talk, and that he'd be coming over in about an hour. I immediately feared for the worst, he wanted to break up, but I also tried to calm myself into thinking he really did just want to talk. An unlikely scenario though. Time seemed to be moving extremely slow as the dreaded hour ticked by, and my thoughts were worsening. I felt my phone buzz beside me as a I received a text from Liam letting me know he was outside. I scrambled from my bed, brushing my fingers through my hair and wiping my eyes. I didn't want to look as bad as I felt. As I reached the door I took a breath and opened it to reveal my boyfriend; soon to be ex.

"Hey.." I mumbled and backed up to let him enter. "Wanna sit down?" The offer was bleak as my gut knew where this was going, but he nodded his head and followed me to the couch; the couch that had so many memories of our relationship. I pushed the memories out of my head and turned my body to face him, ready for whatever words came out of his mouth next.

"I think we should break up." He stated, his voice wasn't filled with sadness, but rather guilt, and his eyes were focused on his lap where his hands lay linked together.

"I figured that's what this was about." I whispered and looked away for a moment, fighting back tears. "Why?"

Liam finally brought his gaze upwards and my heart sank. I wouldn't see those eyes the same way anymore. "I've gotta focus on hockey.. it takes up so much of time to begin with and I need to do well in order to get scouted." What a shit reason, I thought to myself as I nodded my head pretending to be more understanding than I really was. "I also just don't feel the same about you anymore.." he trailed off knowing how much that sentence would hurt me.

That was it though, that was the real reason he was ending our relationship. The worst part of this whole thing was that yesterday I had finally come to the realization that I loved him. We hadn't said "I love you" to each other yet but I guess now I know why he hadn't.

"Okay well, I guess that's it." I said and stood up, holding my head high and still holding back tears. I turned and walked towards the door that the guy I loved had walked through only minutes ago to break my heart. "I'll see ya around." My hand reaches for the knob and I opened to door to see him out. "Goodbye Liam." I whispered as he walked through it, stopping to turn his head to look at me one last time.

"Goodbye Ivy."

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Sorry for such a short intro, I just wanted to get this moving and give you all a feel for my writing and what to expect.

The first real chapter should be coming soon depending on how confident I feel about my next diploma. Wish me luck and don't forget to vote and comment please! :)

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