Thoughts/Lit

poems XL

If i just

Keep existing

Then maybe

Some day

I will be

Whole

Again.

~

Everytime i see you

Or hear your voice

A fire starts in my heart

But i have trained my brain

To extinguish the flames

~

I still think about you,

but i don't want to run

into your arms anymore.

I want to run as far away

from you as I can

so that maybe you

will finally get out

of my head

~

I gave you all the love

I had to give

But now the only thing

I can give to you

Is my silence.

I hope you find

What you are searching for

I hope you’re as loved

As you deserve to be

~

I spend so much time

In the shower

Trying to wash away

The sadness

Scratch away

The memories

Cut away

The pain

~

Maybe love is an illusion

We are trained to hope for

You were everything real

In a world of make believe.

But when kids grow up,

And the magic turns into science…

It breaks their heart, too.

~

Two love struck teenagers

Tangled up on the ground

Not focused on the past or the future

But on the present, on each other

Their happiness could have powered countries

They didn't know that in the future

They would be looking for a new source of electricity

To see through this power outage

~

I love you

More than i love

Living.

I understand

Now

Why almost

No one

Knows the

Purpose

Of humanity.

But i did

It was

You.

~

I want to cry

But all my eyes can do

Is sting

And burn.

I want to scream

But all i can say is

“I’m sorry.”

I want to kiss you

But all i can do is force myself to look away

Because i would crash apart

If our lips met again.

I need it to hurt

So i make it hurt

~

I need to stop loving you

So i'm going to need my heart back

As much of it as you can find

And help me build a wall

Of music notes and scars

So that it never runs away

Again

~

Yell at me

Scream your soul

Away

So that i can

Cry and

Move on

~

I don't know what's worse

The pain in my chest

The wasps in my stomach

The absence of my soul

Or the tears in your eyes

~

Blankets and warm sheets

Slide across the hidden marks

I make when i think of you

~

The beginning began with two

But the end always ends alone

~

I was on autopilot

Until you taught me how to fly

~

You don't

See me

Anymore

But now

That I

Think about

It, I

Realize

You never

Have.

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