"my scars are fading now. I feel lost without them ."
after my little "meeting " with sandy i went to the bathroom to check out the damage. turns out i just a black eye and a little cut on my face.tuen i lifted my shirt just as i had suspected blue and purple bruises were making there apearance .
i got a napkin and wet it .i slowly started to clean the cut on my face .after that was done i reached for the foundation in my bag .this has happened many times before so its expected to have at least on visibal bruise .
i sighed walking out of the bathroom and to my first period class music .
music art and English were the only subjects i like considering the allowed me to express myself .
i walked in and luckily we had a sub and were watching a movie. i said i liked English nothing about the teacher.
i zoned out through tje movie just doodling on myself i drew over my slowly fading scars .
what from you ask ? i self harm. no one know and if they did they would think its for attention well if i wanted you to know i wouldn't wear long sleeves 24/7 now would i . i often have urges that i can get go away .i try to stop i do but end up doing it every night. after one of my carefrontations with sandy .
i don't like it but i hurt myself so others don't have to .
