Life of a high schooler

The rabbit hole

So my "group" grew smaller and my anxiety grew bigger. The fear of being alone scared the shit out of me all my life I had friends. Or so I thought.

SLUT

WOW HE MUST OF BEEN DESPERATE

EW

Ew yes ew is what my new name was. I was no longer a person, I was now a label, an object...and a target.
A few months passed and I now had three friends. The couple that cheated that night at the party and a guy.
A guy I would never of thought I would become friends with...just as well it didn't last long.

It's a nice day out can't be assed for school so I chill with my friends at the smoking shelter, we play loud music, we laugh until we finally get kicked off campus.

And situation number 2 occurred.
A boy...again I know but it was just fun.
He lived across from campus and we were all gonna go when all of a sudden our couple of the group decided to get into an argument so we carried on walking hoping that they will meet us at his place. NOPE!
I don't know what happened let's call mystery guy dan. He was cleaning and I was simply admiring the music when all of a sudden I'm pushed up against the fridge and he's kissing me. This led to his living room, the hall way and finally the bedroom but don't worry, this bitch is no slut. I stopped before it could go any further.

Dan had recently broken up with his girlfriend and I knew I was a distraction so I told him how I felt and he insisted that was not the case but I stuck with my instincts I told him I'll give him 2 weeks and if he is totally over her and it just happens in the moment then I'm okay with it. And with that I left.

So two weeks later I decided to have a house party...again only this time it was just the four of us. The couple, the slut and clearly the fuck up. 
It was suppose to be a secret but how can you cover up great sex when there's two others in the house, plus she was my best friend I just HAD to tell her, then she told her boyfriend and the boyfriend told dan and it went back to me. All was calm we new to keep it between us and we did what we all thought would happen. Drugs, alcohol and sex lots of it.

Little did I know he then left the next morning to hook up with another girl. Without Evan showering...gross!

So a few days go by and I'm back at school I bump into dan at the smoking shelter and we act like nothing happened except something will.
The day was going great I had finished class and again I was at the shelter and I was hanging out with the group and some close class mates. Little did I know that my life would turn around from here.

The couple, my best friend had gone and put me on the spot and told my class mates what had happened and the fact that the other girl he slept with must feel awe full. BUT NOT ME NOOOO. which then got told to the biggest gossip girl in the school which then led to a group of dan hating girls which of course went back to dan.

This was over the course of two days. That's all it took. So I told him what happened he said that he had sorted it all out with the other girl and she's fine with it. Until....

I got on the bus and this when the death threats started rolling in, the phone calls, the text messages.
It was all my fault. I'm the girl who slept with dan, I'm the slut, you should stay away from me...EW
So going through all of this I'm on the bus crying my eyes out headphones on and looking out the window when a passenger caught my eye.
Why was everyone getting up and standing near me. Why did the bus stop. Well I'll tell ya through all my thinking and just feeling shitting I just wanted to leave and wasn't looking where I was sitting on the bus.

I JUST SAT NEXT TO A DEAD GUY
The man is dead. Sitting there.  Stone fucking dead. Wtf

Here's lies the three worst things to happen in a day.
Cyber bullying
Loosing my friends
And sitting next to death itself

To be far I'd rather be the sitting where the dead guy is then where I am right now.