Becoming Relevant

Be a Boss Ass Bitch| 1

"I'm so so sorry for being a hypocrite. I literally deserve the world's worst friend award coz I be saying shit and when the person I say imma stay away from pops up I go talk to them. Coz i'm not trying to be fake, and I value your friendship a lot, you're literally one of my closest friends in the world and I don't want nothing to change that."

Sienna doesn't even look up her phone. I can't believe we're here again every time I try to deal with an issue we have going on she just  acts nonchalantly about it. She glances up from her phone, looks me dead in the eye and says,

"I don't care who you hang out with."

WTF? Aye I know I'm no expert in this best friend thing but last time I checked best friends were supposed to at least give a damn about each other.

"Look I know you're mad and ish, but girl if we got an issue I would rather we talked it out rather than you ignoring me S. I'm really tired of playing these childish games."

"I'm not ignoring you, I told you I passed out hella early last night is all."

Oh really hun, then why did you find time to respond to literally every comment above and beneath mine. I honestly wish I could say that, but then I would be adding fuel to this fire rather then salvaging it.

"My bad I was just wondering if we was good considering I was the only comment you didn't respond to on Instagram, and you deleted the only picture you had of us on your feed."

"I didn't delete it, I archived it."

So basically fire not salvaged. Time to start this cycle with this bitch again, maybe throw in a couple of tears. Or start a social media war? Second option sounds better to me.

After ranting on literally every social media outlet I'm on, I walked away from Sienna Mack, my best friend of 6 months. What makes it so funny is that I didn't tell her I was her best friend, she gave herself that role. So me being nice as ever took pity on the new girl from Nevada who made it seem like she was in need of friends. I can't deal with two-faced high schoolers. Because at the end of the day what's the point of trying to fix a friendship when the person in question is obviously trying to drop you.

Summer and all its bullshit has come and gone by so fast but its time to haul my ass back to school. The real world, which entails me  finding a new friend group and trying to become known. Gosh, thank you so much Elle for making that seem like an ultimatum.

This summer changed me so much, physically and emotionally. I spent long hours at the gym and finally got a little ass, its not a lot but its still there. My face is still the same, not the prettiest girl in the world but my skin cleared up a lot and apparently I have a dimple. While trying to mentally prepare myself for becoming relevant this year I literally underwent a path of self-discovery. I know it sounds really weird, and hippy and all but I'm definitely ready to channel my inner bitch.

"You're running late Courtney!"

As soon as I get out of my house before I miss the bus that is.

"I'll be down in a minute, Mom!"

Time management is something I still need to work on, but its really hard to get ready when I feel like a boss. Cardi B and SZA are literally giving me life today, hands down one of Cardi's best songs.

"I do what I like I do, I do

I do what I like I do, I do

I do what I like I do, I do