Diary of a Lamp

Entry 3 - Sing

How do you inspire people? How do you just make them do what they do because they had the urge to do it? All they do is just singing, dancing, doing sports and so on. Please, tell me. I'm asking for a friend...

These stunts they do; jumping, flipping. Talent is such a key to a good start. They're probably professionals. With the gift they acquired with their lives and the passion to build their skills, they can do anything. For example, this 15-year old girl who looks mature enough to have her own record labels. How do you do that? I mean, how do you not look like 15 but an artist at show. What a singer she is. I wish I could like that; but I don't wanna be like her.

Sometimes, I wish I could just buy skills

I could practice of course; it's a no-brainer move. But, you see, I don't have a mouth. Just kidding. It's actually beacuse these guy who calls himself a graduate from the music industry. He knows the theories to these mesmerising sounds. The piano,damn. I can't express how sparkly my eye was. But I wanna be honest. Not being mean but he could do music on any instruments, but he can't fool his own voice; not every genre is his forte, he has to find what suits it. He understood all the basic what nots for what a singer should improve with. I'd say his singing voice was ugly in layman's term but it's not the right description.

I'm scared.

What if I had the problem?

I can't just change my voice the way I want it to be. You can't just add cosmetics to it like our skin. You can't just trace it with pen and paper. No, you can't create muscle memory for it. You can have vibrato though.

Though one thing's for certain, like our face when a mask is worn, we can hide it with mouths shut.

But that's the contradiction. I was inspired. These 15-year old girl sparked a teensy flame in me.

I don't want my mouth shut.

I wanna try.

But I don't wanna hear this stupid voice.

After trying, it might prove how much my time was wasted and how wrong I was to believe it might turn out good; like always.

Well.

Oh well.

Oh well...

We can't have every good in life. We just have to appreciate what good we actually have.

This entry is so messy. I apologize; but bear with me.

Okbye

P.S. I'm actually training my voice despite these negations. I'm also trying to practice writing 'cause goddamn I'm no good with words. These entry is part of the step.