I'd rather be alone...

The long road

We don't have many grade specific field trips at my school. All the grades are mixed in different classes, it's not impossible for a freshman to have math with a senior because of this. Most field trips are specific to a class, for example the agriculture class would go on a field trip alone. Maybe it's like that at other school I don't know I've been fortunate to never go to a different school. Anyway my English class, of all sophomores decided to go for a field trip to a small lake side cabin next to lake Eire. We were going because a famous author owned it until he died back in the 1990's. After he died they copied the schematics of the cabin and copied it several times to make a unique hotel town. Judging from the classes reaction I was the only one who wanted to go for the experience of the author's home. We left early, five am, on a Friday morning, we would stay over the weekend and return late Monday night. With over forty students it was a horrible ride. I had my friends, we took the front of the bus. Including me, there where six of us. Me and my cousin Erin sat next to each other. Erin has blue hair and green eyes. Erin can be a bit of a dick at times, he's almost always angry and he isn't too keen to new ideas, also he seemingly will get into arguments for the sake of arguments. Those arguments can backfire on him every once in a while, like when he bet the color of his hair and lost. In the seat next to us sat Derek and Klyde. Derek and Klyde are best friends, Klyde wears bright blue rimed glasses, he has brown eyes and hair, has a buzz cut and he's always wearing camou. Derek is a computer guy, he wears a very diverse line of clothing, at this moment he was wearing denim jeans and a Deadpool sweatshirt, I was making fun of him calling him Derepool, he didn't seem to mind. Behind me and Erin were the last to members of our group Tim and Poe. Tim, like me, is a giant anime fan, in fact he's the only reason I ever started to watch naruto for those fans. Tim and I had been friends for about as long as I can remember, no not friends we were closer to being brothers. Tim's mom and my mom actually had the exact same due date, but Tim was born prematurely and I stayed late. Tim was wearing his glasses, which he didn't need, denim jeans, and a flannel shirt, he was a true lumberjack at heart apparently. I could judge his flannel though, I was wearing black flannel. Finally the last member of our friend group Poe. If you've the popular poet Edgar Allan Poe then you've basically met Poe's interest. In our small town I can only name two people who could murder someone, my split personality Grim, and Poe. Poe is also the only openly gay male in our school. He's also a huge fan of horror. He pretty much only wears black, unfortunately for me that tends to hide his feminine figure, he actively trained his body to be more flexible and look feminine, it worked. Even though he looks goth he's fun to be around and he . . . I love him. He's dating another person from a larger city in Minnesota, but I love him. It makes me a terrible person but I want him, and he knows it, because I've told him and I sexually harass him on a daily basis. He hates it but at the same time he doesn't actually care to much. I know that because he returns it from time to time, and when he and his boyfriend were in a rough spot ,in a time of desperation, he tried to get with me for the attention, but that was the same time I was dating my pregnant ex girlfriend, not my kids. We don't talk about that anymore. Well before went on the bus I grabbed his ass, he scratched my face, I liked it, and he sat in a different seat, we are the best of friends.
We were talking amongst ourselves about what we were going to do at the hotel cabin. In the end we decided that we would split into three groups, I was going to the library to see how the author wrote, I'm an aspiring author myself if you can't tell, Poe and Erin were going going shopping, and Tim, Klyde, and Derek were going to go swimming. I was fine going alone, it gave me an opportunity to yell at Grim for groping every single person we saw. On the bus at this time he was in her 50/50 state, it was weird to watch a beautiful, woman with a penis, give the bus driver a lap dance without anyone else being able to see her-him-it. I was conflicted, I wanted to yell at him, but A: nobody else can see him, and B: I kinda liked watching it, you didn't hear that.
Derek looked to me "Matt, what are you going to read about, I'm not sure I understand?"
Derek was the computer genius of the school and I can't understand the first thing about computers so it was weird to be on the other side of the spectrum. I responded to him, "Every author goes through writers block, it um is part of the experience. Uh I'm having issues with it right now so I'm going to try to find out how he got over it, the. I'll write a bit and hit on Poe," I said
Grim turned his head to look at me, he scoffed and faded away.
Poe gleaned over to me, "MATT!" He said in a loud voice, not yelling or screaming but instead he just talked loud, it was both funny and cute how he said it. Grim appeared behind Poe and mouthed everything that Poe was saying. "I am on vacation I'd like to not deal with this,"
Grim leaned over Poe " You know Matt, either I'll kill him" Grim put his hand on Poe's shoulder, strangely, and to my horror, Poe shivered and put his hand on that same shoulder.
My face turned paper white. Poe, who can't see, hear, and theoretically shouldn't be able feel Grim, fucking reacted to getting a hand on his shoulder! I felt sick.
Grim finished his thought, "Or he could kill us," Poe's eyes popped out and he jumped forward at me, I close my eyes out of fear of death. When I open them Grim's gone, and Poe is still there.
Erin looked to me, "Are you sick again? You're sneezing and you look green?"
Poe wasn't going to kill me? I don't get it! I felt Grim, living true to his name, he held a scythe out in front of me, right at my neck, I dared not move. I had a scythe at my neck. I'm going to die I thought. Oh my god I'm going to die! I could feel the smile form on my face, not a smile of fear, but joy, I was going to die I was ecstatic! In my state of sheer ecstasy I didn't notice he dropped the scythe and wrapped his arms around my chest.
"You really think I'd hurt you?" Grim chuckled sadisticly. He spun  I himself around me with his hands still around my neck. As he came around he turned into his "female" form. She-he-it leaned in and put, her-his-it's tits in my face. I closed my eyes, but she's-he's-it's a part of my mind closing my eyes is essentially Changing the background. I thought to myself, and by small extension, Grim, "I'm with my friends, Grim let me alone,"
Thankful Grim dropped her charade and assumed his mist form. "You are such a cock block," Grim joked before he dissipated.
I open my eyes back to reality, Klyde and Derek were talking about Klyde's watch, I observed.
Klyde was talking, "-dn't do anything to it, it just stopped," Klyde had a broken accent of sorts, not quite due to any sort of language change, but it was due to a speech impediment he had many years ago.
"Klyde what's going on?" I asked, shrugging off my encounter of the Grim kind.
"My watch broke," Klyde said
Grim slid out from behind Klyde, which shouldn't be possible because Klyde was in a window seat. "His watch broke? Oh hey Matt, that's one way to kill time am I right?" Grim shouted.
I couldn't help myself, I found it funny. As I started to burst out with laughter I cough rapidly, repeatedly, and horrendously.
Klyde looks at me like I'm an asshole, " I loved this watch,"
I was still coughing and laughing, but I manage to talk, "You broke your watch?" With one last cough I stopped laughing, "Thats one way to kill time!" I start laughing again. No one else joins me so I nervously wrap it up and apologize.
"I thought I was the asshole of our body," Grim comments.
I think in order to talk to Grim, "Please leave me alone. I don't want to be around you right now, please,"
Grim nodded and dissipated again.
The others also hated my rendition of Grim's joke. "Matt I'm sorry but I don't think we can work out anymore," Poe poked fun at me.
"Oh no's whats will I dos now?" I ask in joke reply fashion.
That they laughed at that.
Our algebra teacher, Mrs. Hope, stood up and walked up to our group. She sat down in the seat behind Derek and Klyde. "Alright, were about thirty minutes away from the cabins. When we get there we're getting rooms squared away, I'm guessing that all of will want to share a room?"
Derek and Klyde looked to each other, they nodded. Erin said he was fine with whatever. Tim also didn't care, and Poe said he might as well.
She looked at me, "Well, Matt are you going to stay in the same room or do you have another person to stay with in mind?"
"I honestly couldn't care less but I'd like to stay with them, unless it's to much," I responded, but it was a lie, I hated to be around people. Even though it was a room with my best friends and my crush, I wasn't sure. I still didn't want to be near them, not because I don't like them, but just because it's easier for me to be alone, and it's better too, when I'm alone I get to let go, I don't have to hide how I really feel, which is why I hate Grim, he ruins everything, I'm never alone because of him. Because of him I'm never at peace.
I stayed quite the rest of the drive there, I put in my ear buds and listened to "ten hours of the best opera" on YouTube. I'm not a particular fan of opera, but it does calm me in a hypnotic way so I frequently listen. Finally we arrived at the cabin at ten in the morning. Everyone was tired, everyone was annoyed and everyone wanted to go lay down. When we got inside I was treated to a not so pleasant surprise. Each cabin only fit five people, as per hotel policy, and just perfectly with how many people were there, and with our group, there was one to many people. Mrs. Hope, and our English teacher Mrs. Maple had tried to convince the managers and everyone else who worked there to make an exception. Finally after a half hour of the group arguing I intervened, "Its ok, Mrs. Hope I can stay in the bus, it'll be fine,"
She responded back, " I don't think so! We can't run the heating on the bus all night and more importantly I'm not about to let a student stay alone out here,"
I had to ask, "What do you mean, do you not trust me, or something?"
Her defensive face disappeared, she gained a new, somber look, she pulled me aside and whispered into my ear, " You didn't hear this, but on the way to the hotel I was looking at the news and there's been a few kidnaping in these woods,"
My face immediately lit up, I leaned back and stared her in the eyes, "Really! That's so cool?!" I basically screamed in her face.
"NO, it's not!" She screamed in response.
I made a mistake here, I let one word slip into my thoughts. I thought to my self, "kidnapings, those are really morbid, it would be so terrible if someone here got kidnaped, they'd meet th Grim reaper real quick" that was a huge mistake. It only takes one thought, ONE thought of Grim's name to inadvertently imply consent to let him out, and it did. My vision went dark, I lost my ways to hear, it was literally like being in the back seat of a car.
Grim closed our eyes, leaned our head back, and rolled it. When our head was pointing down he opened our eyes, and began to pick at food between our teeth, food that wasn't actually there. "Listen Mrs. H, can I call you that? I don't care. If some idiots want to try taking me for some stupid ransom money, then I'll just gouge their eyes out and run, simple as that," Grim stopped picking our teeth, cocked our head and smiled.
Mrs. Hope didn't know how to respond to that, I'd never, ever say something as vicious as that. I'm a quite, and passive person when I'm not addressing my friends, but Grim is my polar opposite in that regard, he's an asshole who rejoices at the pain of others. She spoke, probably without thinking, "Okay, sure you can stay in the bus, but you can't have the heater on,"
"Well that's okay, I'm perfectly fine with the cold," I begged Grim to let me back out, but he ignored me. He walked over to Poe, sneered and continued to walk into the bathroom. He turned us to face the mirror.
My reflection was staring at him with my arms crossed. "Okay real funny, why don't you let me back out now," I tried my best to intimidate him.
"Hmm, how about no?"
"Grim so help me god I will, I will," I had no clue what I could do.
Grim started to laugh hysterically, "oh that's cute you don't know how to do anything from behind there. While you're in there I could do whatever I want to destroy your reputation.
He walked out the bathroom, and to my horror, I was still looking out, though the mirror and not my eyes.