Little Dreams

Dream

"This is the last time and then it's just you, me and our family. I promise." He gently places his hand on my stomach feeling our little bean shift slightly.

"Please let me go with you." I plead with him for the hundreth time. If he was so sure everything was going to work out then I should be in the car with him.

"Baby I already told you why you can't." He sighs." Plus Jade needs you." Jade was our 5 year old in the arms of his mother at the moment.

"Promise to come back." Tears building in my eyes. He smiles down at me.

"I always do." He kisses me one last time before getting into the car with the girl who was supposed to be me. He didn't want to take any chances.

With one last smile my way he drove down the hill to the bottom of the meadow where he was meeting the people he was doing business with. With me at the top of the hill out of sight was his mom dad and a couple other people close to us. In total there were ten of us. We were supposed to celebrate afterwards which is why we stayed close. Also to see what went on during the transaction.

But we didn't think it would go so South. A white SUV drove up, parked behind James and started shooting. They caught us by surprise. This was neutral land which means they broke the treaty. I screamed James' name as I tried to run down the hill but Dylan held me back. I twisted and turn trying to escape his grasp as tears fell down my face.

I fell to my knees as the numbing sensation overtook me as I realized it wasn't a joke and it was real. I witnessed my husband die and I couldn't do anything about it. Faintly I heard my daughter scream for me the loud noise of the gunshots scaring her. Dylan helped me to my feet and I quickly went to my little gem reaching out for me.

"My little Jewel it's ok mommy has you." I shush her rocking us both back and forth slowly. I bury my face into her hair and calm my nerves knowing that she needs me more than anything else. She was my main priority.

I turn away from everyone and make my way to the cars we hid in the trees. I place my little doll on the hood of one and made her look at me. I smile down at her and dry her tears away as I try to find a way to explain that her father is dead. I took a deep breath and tried to steady myself.

"My little gem Daddy had to go away for a while." I couldn't look her in the eye.

" When is daddy coming back?" She looks up at me with tearful eyes. She hated when her dad left especially when he left without saying goodbye.

"I'm so sorry my little gem but I don't think daddy is coming back." Now I look at her and what I saw broke my hurt.

"But he always promise. Was I a bad girl? Did I do something?" Tears freely fell from both our faces.

"No no darling. It wasn't your fault. It was no one's fault. He had to do one more job and he will come back to us forever. No more going away after this one." She cried into my shoulder as I held her letting my own fall silently. It was a lie but I couldn't tell her the whole truth. It would hurt her to much.