Love, Trust. Pain.

Chapter 2: Mistakes were made.

    Caleb looked back at me. He got closer and closer until his soft lips touched mine. He put his comforting hands around my cheeks. He softly backed away and pushed me on the bed and started kissing me more and more. He grabs my waist and pulls me towards him. He sits up and strips. 

   I interrupt him by making an excuse that I have to use the bathroom. while I was in the bathroom I kept thinking to myself "should or should I not?" he's a nice guy and I do want to date him but I don't want to fuck him. I walked out of the bathroom saying to Caleb "love isn't having sex the first time you met them. its about learning to trust each other. Then we learn to fall in love. I want to love you I just don't trust you enough." Caleb said with teary eye's "I understand, but can we go out?" "of course." I said with a grin. 

    Caleb walked out and got the spare bedroom ready for me to sleep in. I got under the warm covers, He leans in and kisses me and softly says "goodnight." I turned on the TV and played a TV show I used to watch when I was younger. The "Animaniacs". It looked so easy for them, life. I switched to one of my favorite horror movies "IT". After it was finished I turned off the TV, rolled over, Closed my eyes and wondered "do I really love Caleb or am I just pretending to?"