Plot Twist

twenty three

☆Tony's p.o.v☆

It's been two weeks since Dani delivered the news to us. She said Alex's mom called her and told her that she mentioned us in a letter to tell us sorry. I can't believe she's really gone. The only girl that I've honestly ever loved.
The boys and I have been heartbroken. We've been such a mess.
We've all been stuck in our rooms and we've barely even talked to each other. All of our eyes are puffy and some of us have barely even showered. We haven't watched tv or been out doing anything. We haven't played basketball, or any sport for that matter, we've barely managed to pull off going to school and graduation was two days ago. We couldn't even be happy about that. We barely graduated. It's hard going to school and not breaking down because she isn't there at her locker getting her books out or putting them in. She isn't sitting on the other side of class sitting at her desk. She isn't getting lunch and eating with her friends and sister and then leaving home. She doesn't park her car in front of the school anymore. It's hard being home too because she isn't sitting in her bed in our house. She isn't coming down to get chips and then going back to her room. She isn't sitting on the couch having a movie marathon with us. Everything reminds me of her.
I walked into her room and it was there untouched, she's never gonna touch anything in this room again.
I sat at the end of her bed. I put my hand on her fury blanket at the end of the bed and rubbed my hand across the blanket. It was so soft. I leaned back and picked up one of her pillows and hugged it. I put my face in it. Her beautiful scent lingered on it.
A tear rolled down my cheek. I'm never gonna be able to hold her again, or kiss her perfect lips, or smell her sweet scent, or hear her contagious laugh. Nothing. It's all over.
More tears starting strolling down. I hurried my face in her pillow and laid back on her bed.
Today is her funeral and I honestly don't know if I can make it through it.
I wish I knew that the night we were on the beach that she would have gotten arrested and was failing all her classes and not going to be able to graduate and just know how much pain she was in. I just wish I could have done something to make her not do what she did.
I walked to the living room where all the boys were in tuxedos. There eyes were red and they were silently sitting on the couches. Not one of them made a single sound. They all just sat there starring off into space.
"Ready?" Manuel asked.
"No" Jordan croaked and started crying. Dylan walked up to him and hugged him tightly. Jordan cried loudly into Dylan's shoulder. Joseph went and hugged them to. Soon all of us were in a big group hug.
"Why couldn't we save her?" Jordan asked.
"We were supposed to protect her and make sure she never got hurt." Isaiah said as he walked away and punched the wall and put a big hole in the wall.
"Alejandra wouldn't want us acting like this. You know for a fact she wouldn't. The only thing we can do is be there for each other, for her." Elijah said and we nodded.
We all got into our cars and we drove to the church where her viewing is.
We arrived and there were a lot of people.
We all got out and walked up to her mom.
"Hello, miss Sosa. My name is Tony and these are my brothers Dylan, Elijah, Manuel, Tyler, Gabriel, Christian, Jordan, Joseph, Andrew and Isaiah" I introduced us.
"Your the boys that she loved so much" she said smiling but with pain still in her eyes.
"I am so sorry about what happened to her ma'am." She lightly smiled and walked away.
We seen Dani and Yuli and walked up to them.
"Hey" Dani said as she smiled a little but you can tell it wasn't real.
Andrew went up to her and hugged her and she started crying in his chest.
We went inside and sat down. I sat down next to Mr. Long.
"Hi" I lightly smiled at him.
"Hi.." he said smiling lightly back. He shook his head.
"She was my favorite student" he said as he looked down.
"She was the love of my life..." I said dozing off into space. Pictures of her flashed through my head. From when she first walked into class and I tried to get at her but Mr. Long called me out. To the first date at pur house on the deck. I love her.
A priest came out and started to talked.
40 minutes later the priest announced that we can now visit her casket before we move her to the cemetery.
I waited for everyone to get done and walk out of the room. I stood and walked up to her casket.
The walk seemed like forever til I would reach her. The aisle went on and on forever. I don't wanna see her like that.
I felt like I will never reach her but I did and when I did I wish I never did.
She laid there lifeless.
The police reports say that she put the gun in her mouth and pulled the trigger. There was no damage to her face but there is a hole in the back of her head.
I put my hand on her face and rubbed her cheek.
My eyes got blurry and I blinked and a tear fell.
I pressed my lips to her forehead and I closed my eyes tightly trying to fight back tears.
"I love you so much baby girl" I whispered shakily to her.
"I am so sorry for getting up and just walking away" I said fighting back a sob.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and my cheek tingled as if someone kissed it.
I turned around to see who it was and no one else was in the room. Could that be her?
I looked back at Alex.
"You are my world baby and I am so sorry" I said.
I kissed her once more time for the last time.
Never thought we would end up like this.
I never thought this is how things would end up.   e.
Never thought it would all end like this.