dear him & dear me,

a disclaimer for him.

i will not take losing you as a loss. 

thank you for leaving. 

thank you for putting me in a position where i was forced to love myself; i never truly did before. 

i'd love to know when you gave up and decided i wasn't worth it but in reality i don't need to know. 

i don't need you and i don't believe i ever truly did. 

thank you for giving me many first, i'm sorry for any heartbreak i may have caused you. 

you will not fill up my mind any longer. 

i will not reminisce your existence and i will forget you completely. 

i am done with you forever and i owe it to my heart to never think of you again. 

i wish you the best of luck and hope every shitty thing you did was worth it. 

thank you for telling me so many lies and for making me feel special when i wasn't to you, i know now what to look for in a man, not a boy like yourself. 

i promise myself that i will heal. i promise myself i will not stalk you or ask about you.

 i am ready to love myself more than you ever claimed to love me and discover the greatest aspects of life every day.

this story may include you, but it is not about you. it is about me. and why I still live and love after you. 

if you're reading this, I wish you the best but hope you live in regret.