dear him & dear me,

a disclaimer for me.

you are so strong. you are worth so much. 

you made the choice do something immoral. it was not a mistake, it was a choice, and you must live with that. 

your past choices do not make you a horrible, despicable person. you are still growing and maturing each and everyday. 

I know you feel as though you're stuck in a bubble completely isolated from any happiness or joy, desperately seeking attention.

instead of aimlessly looking for a person to love you, why don't you consider yourself as that person?

because of your actions the consequences followed and the result did not please you. did you really think it would?

you must listen back to those wise voices that once told you how everything happens for a reason, and how you are who you attract.

this was meant to happen to you but it is not the end of the road, and your life is not over.

yes, it is painful to see him move on and supposedly happy but you cannot reminisce in his glory. you must find your own glory.

you don't have to feel completely liberated from the situation but you must see the glorious aspects that have been given to you because he has left your life.

i know that there's going to be some days where you feel so eager to ask about him or go find out what he's doing but why do you care anymore? unfortunately you have to understand that it is time to move on and that you have so many greater years coming.

yes, it is going to hurt sometimes. you're going to think back and feel regret but you cannot live in regret. you're a good person who is growing and has yet to really understand what this world means for you. 

give it time and hang on.