New Firefly

The breaking & bandaids

As soon as I get home
I don't see a trace of you
I get worried
Wondering if I have something to do with your disappearance
But I remember nothing
Because you left without telling me
I never even got to say goodbye
I miss you every time I wake up .
- From your granddaughter

When I came over it was like I was the genie and you were my master
And I'd be happy to do anything you'd want to do
-from cheese

Sometimes I wish that I would've kissed you
Yet I know that I didn't wanna move fast
But you did
It was like you had everything with me planned out
You were just waiting for me to understand and go with your plans
Now that it's almost been a year....
Do you still have those plans ?

- To The 4th

For some reason people think I'm obsessed
And I say no
You just haven't seen me love someone as much as I do him

I cried
And cried
And cried
And cried
Until the tears stopped coming out of my eyes
Did you ?

I don't wanna take another sabbatical from loving
Because YOU didn't know how to deal with real love like mine

Why do you care about your pride so much ?
You have honestly never apologized to me
Not once
I'm always the one taking them blame
Knowing damn well that it was your fault
But that's what people like me do.

I don't know if you this
But I wouldn't have asked for you to buy me anything
Not once
Because
All I ever wanted was you and that would've been enough

I played sports
Did makeup
Started modeling
Met knew people
Tried new things
Start a YouTube channel with my sisters .
Pretend like I didn't know you
Until I didn't
- How I got over Jayhulk

We would've worked out anyway
Sorry but it is what it is .
- not sorry actually but it sounds nice

I found someone new
They were my box of Plasters
Because you shattered it

Finally I learned that if I'm going to love you
I will love myself FOR you because I don't think you ever did
And if you did
You have an awful way of showing it .
- from cheese

Now I am just waiting on the good lord to give me something new .
Because you let me know
And I went out the door .
- not cheese just Annika

If you want to call me cheese than you have to work on yourself .
It is what it is
It's a shame you're older than me
But I'm always the bigger person
- same name but different girl than I was on March 22,2017

Lastly I want to say thank you
For making me realize
I'm a HOOT !
With or without you
Because she is so gone
I am new and improved now