Just like me. (Saeran x reader) *DISCONTINUED*

You'd Let Me Go?

A/N: before we start I just want everyone to direct their attention to the picture for this chapter! Oh my lord he is so sexy! I just want everyone to know that Searan may look like my favorite but it's actually V. He is my baby. I was willing to fight my friends for them. So V is my sweet little blind daddy. Lol.

I woke up to furious tapping of the keyboard. I stood up and walked to his chair. I leaned up against it while looking at the computer. He turned around and patted his lap. I sat down and blushed. He was always surprising me. He turned the chair around and resumed on the computer. I gasped when he found hospital records about me. I was a clumsy person and got hurt way more than a gamer should. He scrolled through them.

"I thought you were a gamer?" He asked. I nodded. "Then why do you have so many hospital records?" I shrugged. He chuckled. He went through my LOLOL records. "Third overall?" He asked.

"Yeah. Yoosung's second and someone is first." I said shamefully. "I train everyday...." I trailed off. "Well, I did train everyday, until you came." I admitted. He stopped typing. 

"Do you enjoy playing the game?" He asked. I looked at him.

"Yes. I do enjoy that game. It's my job. I'm a professional gamer. I have a channel." I explained. He stared hard into my eyes. His mint green orbs held me in place. He picked me up off his lap and dragged me out of his room. I walked with him to the outside. The sun blinded me. It had been days since I last seen the sun. It welcomed me like a child born into the world. I followed Searan as we walked to what looked like a beat up Jeep. He helped me in it and climbed in on the other side.

"You love that game right?" He asked holding my hand as if I was going to disappear if he let go. I laced my fingers through his.

"More than my own life." I said certain. He smiled and the Jeep roared to life. I just stared in awe as we drive down the dirt road. Soon we were on the city roads. He pulled up to my apartment complex. I looked at Searan worried. He turned off the car and got out. He walked to my side and opened the door. I was about to get out when he pulled me out and held me bridal style. He closed the door and walked inside the building. He set me down and handed me my bookbag. I pulled out the key and unlocked the door. It was exactly the way it was when I left it. 

"This is what you wanted right?" He asked. My jaw dropped. He was going to let me go? I couldn't believe it. I ran up to him and hugged him. Tears streamed down my face. He wrapped his arms around me.

"What about you? Aren't you going to stay with me?" I questioned. He shook his head. I held him tighter. Tears were pouring down. "N-no! You have to stay with me! I don't want this if I can't be with you!" I yelled. He pushed me away and wiped my tears away. 

"I love you (Y/N). I will always love you, but you have to forget about me." He explained. I shook my head. "Please (Y/N)." He begged. 

"No! Take me back! If I can't spend my life with you like this, then I'll go back and join the magenta." I exclaimed. He looked at me shocked. I was quite shocked myself. 

"Please forgive me (Y/N)." He said. He kissed me and then hit me in the head. I yelped and blacked out.

————————————-time skip brought to you by Searan's Sexy Glasses!——————————

I woke up to banging on the door. I shot up and groaned from a headache. I walked towards the door and opened it. I was tackled by Yoosung. 

"(Y/N)! You're ok! Oh thank lord!" He cried. I pushed him off of me. 

"Yoosung how many times have I told you not to tackled me. Remember last time?" I said. Yoosung smiled a guilty smile. Another guy came into my view with a note in his hand. He handed it to me.

"It's for you. I found it on the fridge." I nodded and opened it. I gasped at the familiar handwriting. It said:

           Dear (Y/N),

I wish this finds you in good health. I hope you are doing well and you enjoy your life. Do not try to go looking for me. I have moved the location. Maybe one day we will meet in the heavens. Remember I love you and will always love you. I also repaired your phone and it lays on your bed. Make sure not to hurt yourself much. I will always be watching.

                                                                                                    Love, Searan Choi ❤️

Tears streamed down face as I folded the paper. He left me. Yoosung noticed and hugged me. I smiled and hugged him back. The other guy who I was guessing as Saeyoung knelt down and hugged me too. I laughed. 

"Thanks guys. I feel fine now." I said. They let go. I smiled. "I'm going to play LOLOL. Do you guys want to play?" I asked pulling out two computers. Yoosung grinned and grabbed one. Saeyoung stared uneasy at it. I set it down. "Join when you want to hacker." I said smirking. The red heads mouth dropped. I sat down at my monitor and put my headset on. I logged in and was greeted by my guild leader. We gamed for hours on end. Soon I grew weary and passed out. 

Saeyoung's POV

I picked (Y/N) up from He gaming station and put her on her bed. I pulled her covers over her body. I sat on the edge of the bed and stared at the (h/c) woman. 'She was with my brother.' I thought. She started to whimper out a name. I leaned in to hear her. 

".....Searan.....Don't....come back....." she whispered. She was sweating. She gripped her sheets and started crying. I grabbed her hand. She felt like she was running a fever. "Searan!!! Don't leave me!!! I love you!!!" She cried. I shook her slightly, waking her up. Her eyes fluttered open. I smiled at her. She hugged me and cried. I sat there shocked. I just hugged her back. I sat there and thought to myself 'She's going to have a lot of trouble forgetting about my brother.'