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Some more Scars

Am I dead? I touched my body. Oh no! I am still alive! "This is a sign, my brother!" "Is someone here?" Nothing. Maybe it was my fantasy... "I am here" "Where?" "Here!" I saw a man sitting on a rock. "Who are you?" I asked. "That is not important." "How long are you here?" "That is not important." "What is important?" "The signs! You can come to me and my people." "You and your people?" "Yes. Come with me. Your new name is Owasinda. This stands for the survivor!" Owasinda... So I went with him.

"So my little swan: This is your new home!" "ok..." I saw some houses built with wood, leaves and mud and dirt. And this in my new home? Yes. It seems so... "What do you think about it? Wonderful, not?" "Yeah... I can't believe my luck..." Some people starred on me. "Are you willing to join our religion?" "Your religion?" "Yeah. Our religion." "What is it about?" "That is not important" "But what if I don't like it?" "You will see" "So...?" "Join to our religion!" "Is it kina sect? Wow many people I must kill? Are there any rituals to immolate People or animals?" "That is not important. You will see everything. Are you going to join us?" What I have to lose? "Yes!" "Good boy! Good Owasinda! Good swan!" So I joined the sect. There were about twenty-seven people. All of them come here because of a sign, as I did.

"No", "No", "No", "No", "No", "No", "No", "No". "What then?" "You must choose, not I am!", "No", "No", "No"! "Why!? What is wrong!?" "That is not important." "No. It is important, so tell me!" "Everything." "Everything-everything?" "Yes" "Oh! It is so sad!" "What?" "That is not important!" my voice was full of mockery. "Don't not talk to me with this sound! I am your leader! Your boss! The person who stands over you and behind you! Don't make a mistake my boy, Owasinda, my swan!" "Please, forgive me!" "My boy, Owasinda, my swan, I am not angry with you. I love you. You know? In fact, I love all my brothers!" He said brothers also to woman's. "I have a job for you. If you pass this 'Test' you won't die!" "What!? I will die if I don't pass the 'Test'?" Oh my goodness. I had won my enjoyment of life back, and then something!
***There was a small table in the small room. There were also two chairs. Someone sat on the one opposite of mine. It was a boy. He found me in the desert. He didn't know my name because I forgot my name. In the desert you haven't got a name. "How should I call you?" I didn't answer. For two days I hasn't said anything. "Please! Talk to me! If I hadn't rescued you, you would be dad now!" "I wish I was dead...", my voice sounded broken. "Why?" "because I lost everything" "what?" "my true love" "and your parents?" "they were angry with me. They said I'm not their child anymore." "why?" "Because I started to cut myself and didn't stop. They got crazy with me. After five years they said I should go away. Now I am twenty-one, I think..." "why were you in the desert?" "I didn't want to cut myself anymore. So I went in the desert. You can see the results. I am clean." "and what about this wound on your left arm and the other one on your left leg?" "it wasn't me. It was a rock. A very sharp rock. It wasn't planed!" "ok. I believe you but there is so much sand in it" "ok yes... I know... I put it in my wound" "why" "because I wanted to cut myself but I didn't have a knife" ***

There was something or detailed someone I had forgotten! "You must kill someone!" "Who?" "The one from the waterfall. The one who spoke to you before you had jumped! The one you love!"
***We took a trip to a waterfall. We sat on the riverbed. We talked some time and then he said "I think I love you" at first I said nothing but then I spoke to him. "Yeah. Me too. But will you be happy with me? You will get more and more broken if I am with you. Believe me, I am not good for you" then I stood up, gave him a kiss and jumped down the waterfall. "Nooooo!" He shouted loudly. ***
"You mean Marcell!?" "Yes" "I can't do that! He rescued me! Without him I would be dead now!" "Why? What did you?" "I was in the desert... I cannot do that!" "Ok... I can retrace this." "So I don't have to kill him?" "Oh... My boy. My boy Owasinda. My little, little swan." "Yes...?" "Either you kill him or I must kill you" "Why you don't let me go? Or you can give me another 'Test'? He rescued me! I can't kill him!" "That is not important. No. Yes, but you will kill him or we will kill you!" his voice was really loud. Normally he spoke quiet and calm. What is wrong with this fucking sect!? "Can't you do something for me?" "No. Either you kill him or we kill you!" "But..." "That is not important!" He shouted very loudly. "His death or your death!" I thought about it a moment. "Ok." "What is your decision?" "I will kill him!" "Ok, good decision! Good boy, good Owasinda, good swan"

"So! Here is a gun. You have just one shot! If you fail you will get killed. If you shoot him you will be the next leader after me." I would have power if I kill him! I want to have that power! He is old, I am young, he will die soon, I am not. I would become power soon! I want to have that wonderful power! "So, my boy... Owasinda... my little cute swan!" he gave me the gun. Then he gave me a kiss. I was surprised... He saw my expression and said fast "This is for every brother. I wish you good luck!" He grinned. Yes, yes, I believe you!

I see him. Over there is he. Marcell! If I kill you I will get leader of all the people! "Marcell?!" "And now I hear his voice!?" "No, it is me!" "You? I thought you are dead!" "Yes, I also thought so, but I am here I had survived!" "Oh my god! I had missed you so much!" "Me too" Lie! I had forgotten you. I just want the power! I pointed with the pistol at him. "What are you doing?" he sounded shocked. "If I kill you I will get leader of all the people!" "I had rescued you... I was in love with you..." his voice sounded broken. "Yes... I know!" silence... "Take it as a present. As a 'Thank you'!" I shot.

THE END!!!!!