Why Me?

Locked In

I ran home tears streaming down my face. When I reached my house I ran upstairs as fast as I could and locked my bedroom door and cried for about an hour. After a while I heard a knock on my bedroom door "What's wrong little sis" asked my sister Iris seeming concerned, "Open up you can't stay in there forever". I quickly get myself together and wiped the tears from my face with the back of my hand. I open the door and my sister comes in looking concerned "What's up" she asks "Nothing" I reply lying straight to her face. "Are you sure" she says clearly not believing me, " Well if you need anything my door is open" and with that she leaves the room.
When it was time for dinner my Mom obviously saw this as an opportunity to question me on how my first day went "Hi Avery how was your first day"? my Mom asked "Fine" I replied in a monotone voice. "Did you make any new friends"? " Yes" , " What are their names "? she asked again, " Erin and Serena " I replied in a slightly surprised voice.
I couldn't believe what I had just said, was I dreaming or did I just say that Erin and Serena were my new friends. They had humiliated me in front of the entire school on my first day at Kingston Academy. Why couldn't have I thought of a name like Emily or Kate why did I have to tell my mum my new friends were Erin and Serena.
When dinner was finished I went back upstairs and looked in the mirror. What everybody had said was completely true, I was fat and ugly, I was a loser who had no friends. I spent all night tossing and turning wondering how I was gonna face everybody at school tomorrow.
When I woke up I tried to think of various excuses I could tell my mom but none of them seemed convincing. In the end I decided to go for the oldest trick in the book the"I don't feel well". I went down for breakfast and told my Mom "Mom I don't feel well" I say in my sickest voice. She was a nurse so she felt my forehead and said " Your temperature feels normal to me", I respond quickly " Its my stomach that feels sick, I feel like I'm gonna throw up any second". I knew she didn't believe me for a second, " Avery are you trying to get out of going to school because that's not gonna happen" she said in her stern voice " You are going to school and that is that"! I knew I couldn't say anything to change her mind because when she made her decision you couldn't change her mind. The least I could do was prepare myself for the things that they were gonna call me at school today.
I walked to school with my head down low just wishing that I could disappear into the ground but I knew the chances of that happening were very low.
Why did they have to pick on me, what had I done to them for them to treat me so badly. I wanted to know. They had made me feel worthless and useless. They made me question why I was on this earth. What benefit would I be to others, oh yeah I could be their little dummy to make fun of.
I felt like I was locked in my own body, I couldn't tell anyone because I had the fear that they would just laugh at me and say everything the people at school had said was right. I have always kept to myself since I was young, if something happened I wouldn't tell anybody around me, I would keep it to myself. If the situation got out of hand  only then I would tell somebody. Now looking back on it I knew I should have told someone. If I did then it wouldn't have got this bad.
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~Angeleena~
Quote of the day: You can't change how people treat you or what they say about you. All you can do is change the way you  to react to it.
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