What Does My Heart Want

Chapter 2

   As I drive home all I can think about is how my mom is going to be disappointed in me. I already know she is going to try and talk me out of this decision which I don't want at all. If that is the route she decides to take then honestly she is going to be wasting her own breathe because I have already decided that this is what I want.

   After I had agreed to go to Korea with them RM and I exchanged numbers so could stay in touch. We started texting almost immediately and we both agreed that I should meet the other members who are currently with him before we leave. He said that Jin, Jimin, and V were with him here in Texas.

   While driving I start to think back to when RM said they all thought I was beautiful. V just so happens to be one of my favorites, so of course hearing that makes me happy. I start to smile like an innocent school girl. It did also make me slightly nervous because Suga is my favorite member. And what if he sees me but doesn't like me or find me attractive? I mean the other member are just going off of looks. But just imagining my favorite BTS member not liking me is terrifying.

   I was brought back from my thoughts as soon as I pulled up to my house. I knew I would have to tell my mom as soon as I walked through the doors. Other wise I would act all weird around her and then she would ask me what was wrong leaving me to spill out everything anyways.

   I unlock the front door and walk inside. As soon as I do I see my mom on the couch with my younger siblings watching the movie Frozen. "Well here we go." I say to myself.

   "Hey guys, enjoying the movie?" I ask

   "Oh hey sweetie, the movie is wonderful. How was work?" my mom asks.

   "Work was alright, you know the normal. Um but speaking of work I have to tell you something." I started off and then turned my head to look away. She is going to think I am crazy,

   "Oh goodness, did you get fired? Someone pushed your buttons again at work and you were being a smartass to the wrong customer huh?" my mom asks concerned while all 3 of my siblings look at me very interested.

   "No mom I was not fired although I did quit today." I say out loud while my mom looks at me extremely lost.

   "So you know that South Korean group that I love so much, BTS?" I ask my mom.

   "Well yes, you listen to them everyday. But I am not sure what that has anything to do with you quitting your job?" She replies back to me even more confused than before.

   "Honestly you are not going to believe me but they want me to go live with them in Korea. I ran into one of the members at work today and he asked me to come and be their friend who keeps them company." I looked at my mom cheerfully hoping she won't kill me.

   To my surprise though she starts to laugh at me. "Right and I am going to marry Dwayne Johnson tomorrow." She says then continues to laugh.

   Wow she thinks this entire thing is a joke. Thinking about it though it does seem highly unbelievable. I mean who just stubbles upon a celebrity and then said celebrity asks them to come and live with them? No one that is who, well up until today that is.

   "No mom I am being completely serious. I put in my 2 weeks notice today at work. I am going to get my passport tomorrow. Then in 2 weeks I am hoping onto a plane and flying to Souel, South Korea with RM, V, Jin, and Jimin. In all honesty I have no idea when I will come back and visit but I am leaving." I said with a stern voice so there was no room for any confusion and she could see just how serious I was being.

   My mom immediately stops laughing and just stares at me. Of course her just staring scared the living crap out of me. A silent mother is a plotting mother and that is never a good thing. So I had no choice but to just stand there until she finally spoke.

   "So you are going to Korea with your favorite Korean boy band?" She asked.

   "Yes." I say, short and simple.

   "And you will be well taken care of? They are not going to let you get abducted or anything right?" She asked.

   "No mom I will be protected and watched my their security staff as if I were one of them." I reply.

   She looked at me a little longer before speaking again. "Well I feel like this will be an amazing adventure for you. I mean you have never even been out of Texas so going all the way to Korea will be completely different. But I am sure you are going to love it."

   I stand there waiting for her to yell at me, to tell me that I am insane. Yet she doesn't. Instead she gives me her blessing to go which completely throws me off. Honestly at this point I do not know if I should believe her or not. Like what if she is just telling me what I want to hear then says "sike, are you crazy?"

   "Are you being serious?" I ask my mom.

   "Yes I am being serious. I am going to miss you like crazy but I really hope you have a wonderful time. I can only imagine how happy and excited you are right now." She says to me with a simple smile.

   "So you are not upset that I am just up and leaving? You don't think I am crazy to just go?" I ask just waiting for her to yell at me.

   "Nope I'm not upset and no I don't think you are crazy. I mean given the opportunity I do not know anyone who wouldn't want to live with their celebrity crush. Now I'm not going to lie I am slightly concerned about you moving so far away. If something were to happen to you it's not like I could just hop into my car and drive to wherever you were at. At some point though I have to let you be an adult and venture off on your own. So just be safe." My mom said then got up and hugged me.

   All of my siblings followed after her to hug me as well. My youngest sister Anna asked me who from BTS did I meet today. Well this is about to get awkward because she is completely and totally in love with RM.

   "Funny you should ask that. RM is actually the one who approached me." I said.

   Her eyes got really big and I could see the excitement in them. But then it faded and all I could see was jealousy. "I swear if you kiss him or even flirt with him I will hate you and never speak to you again Serena." She spoke rather harshly.

   "I don't plan on doing any of that. Besides you know that I like Suga. Even if that didn't work out I would probably try V next not RM. Well actually if Suga turned me down I would just go into a deep depression and come home. So RM is safe and all yours." I say and then laugh trying not to think about how he called me beautiful and he might actually be interested in me.

   I walk to my bedroom and shut the door. I look around my room and just think about how everything is going to be completely different from now on. In 2 weeks this won't even be my room anymore. I'll have a completely different room in an entirely different country. Should I start packing now? What if all of my stuff doesn't fit over there?

   "Calm down, everything is going to be fine." I tell myself. I will worry about packing tomorrow. I head towards my dresser and grab some clothes to sleep in. After tonight things are going to be crazy. I can't wait!