know no better || e.d

t h r e e

I wake up with a pounding headache

I hear snores and look to my right

Ethan?

And he's shirtless

So am I

What the fuck happened

I force myself out of his grip and shove a hoodie on

Getting up and going downstairs

I make myself a coffee and sit on the couch

Thinking of what I'm gonna say to Ethan

My head snaps to the stairs as he walks down them

He just has grey sweats on

Phew

I bit my lip as he walks over to me

I look up to him smiling

'Morning'

'Morning'

I get up

I wrap my hands around his torso and start pushing him towards the door

I open it and push him outside

I laugh

'Byeeee'

He puts his hands up

'I don't even have a car'

'Uber'

'Give me my shirt then'

'No, see you thursday'

This will be pretty funny

I'm about to close the door

'Pleaseeee'

'Fine I'll drive you' I give in

-

Thursday

The meeting went smoothly as usually

I'm not too sure how many more we have but it's getting bearable

Ethan still rolls his eyes though

He practically hates me

But my feelings are the same

I hate him and everything he put me through

But when I saw him again I saw the reasons why I loved him

Why I couldn't stand to be away from this boy

If only he felt the same

A knock on my door snaps me out of my thoughts.

I get up and open it

It's Ethan

Again

Can this kid leave me the fuck alone

'Mhm?'

'I left my jacket'

'Mkay'

I let him in and shut the door

He grabs it then goes to say something

'Save it'

I sit back down

He exhales

'I just need to say something'

'No, you broke me Ethan, but just because I'm doing good in life doesn't mean I want you back'

He exhales and mumbles

'I still love you' but I don't hear it

'You know what's funny?'

'What?'

'You hate me, for what? Loving you? I did nothing wrong this was all your fault'

My eyes start to water

'I know'

'I should be the one hating you, but I still find myself loving you, I can't forget you, I'm supposed to hate you for breaking me and damaging me, but I don't, I can't bring myself to hate you, I loved you and I'll never stop'

I let all my feelings out

Tears slipping from my eyes

'I still loved you, I thought if I hated you it would replace the feeling because I knew you'd never love me again' he stares at the ground

I stand there shocked

We stand there in silence

'Please get out' I squeak out

He looks up at me

And for the first time I see his eyes sparkle again, full of life, full of hope

'Dani-'

'Please Ethan'

He sighs and walks to the door and shuts it softly

I sit down and place my hands on my temples

Comprehending what just happened

He still loves me

But I can't

I can't get back with him

After everything he put me through

He's lost my trust

And I don't know if he'll earn it back

My stomach is uneasy

I get up

I walk to my car keeping my head down

Knowing my eyes are red and puffy

A/n

I apologise this chapter is very short, these first couple of chapters are horrible I apologise for that also x